10/06/2003 - Went to work. I actually went home early because I wasn't feeling to well. It was actually the first time I actually left anything because I was sick. I say, if you're sick, stick to what your priorities are. Most people stay home because they don't want to get anyone sick where they are. I also say, if you are able to go to school or work, don't worry about getting anyone sick. If you know how to keep your cold to yourself, it's the care of themselves that should matter. Don't you think. I'm not the one coughing without covering my mouth like some rude people. I wash my hands whenever I touch anything nowadays, AND I don't exchange a handshake or hug when I am sick.

10/07/2003 - Woke up next to Aivy and attempted to sleep in until a little past noon. Unfortunately, with my sleeping pattern I woke up before 9-am. Aivy's cousin's, Melissa, came over to kick it and get ready for work. Hey girl, if Aivy can care so much about you, then so will I. Since it's almost three days ago, I just remember that we finally got out of the house and went to TGIF's for Marco's birthday. Happy 21st Birthday, Marco!!!

10/08/2003 - Mistakenly, I went into work finding out that Caesar was there already. I was only supposed to take his October 1st Wednesday. My impression was that I was taking his Wednesday shift altogether. Oh well! Later that day, I got ready and I drove myself to Hayward. It has been awhile since I went and slept there. Aivy and I watched the Simpson's 1st Season episodes. We eventually fell asleep a little past midnight.

10/09/2003 - I find myself in a pickle. I like to see myself as patient and worth the time, and I sometimes need to be told that I am appreciated. There is a particular person that constantly gives me the pleasure and I thank you, my love. Everyone tends to need a little push toward gratification. Don't tell me that you can live your life without any acknowledgement. Maybe moving out of five roommate environment into my old home leads me into isolation. Also, my parental unit is out of town, so my only reach of company is Aivy. These past two weeks have been the best, just like the first 10-months that we've been together. I'm lonely. Not as lonely like I was nearly two or three January's ago. I decided to leave San Jose and stay in San Francisco for only one week. It left me disturbed and scared to be alone. My friends turned out to be home-bodies. There was no one. I broke down, even when I went back to San Jose. I wanted to just sleep until school started again. So, now, I tell anyone who has ever felt this, YOU AREN'T ALONE. Of course, if you're religiously affiliated, you have God. But, there is alwas someone out there in this world who has the same constant boredom as you do. And when there is no possible escape from isolation, take a look at yourself in the mirror, and realize that time spent with yourself, your mind, your ability to expand your life is limitless.

note: I am alone now. I worry for many that have made isolation impossible.