I've come to the conclusion that I'm a hardworker. I take challenges and tasks no matter how difficult the level. Especially at work where I feel the most pressure, my brain power exceeds it's capacity. How does someone know when they're working hard, otherwise, hardly working? There is no way to read someone else's struggle, so work don't worry about it.

I've been watching this movie My Big Love while I've been writing. According to the amount of writing, I've been paying too much attention to the movie. It involves an obese gentleman "Macky" (like myself + 1/2) who involves himself with a well-known lady. On their blind date, he embarrasses the both of them. He finds himself eating more, leaves his job, and begins to feel like there is no where else to go. Prior to the date, Aira, ...oh geez. Fast forward, Macky loses the pounds and has a fit body. Aira goes away to Japan, and Macky goes away somewhere else. So, just when you think he's with Aira in the second half, he's with Nina, the girl who didn't like the fat him. That's it for now because the move has 15 more minutes.

OMG, he's even living with Nina. Sorry, SPOILERS!!!!

My question, why isn't he with Aira? We shall see.