My life has entered into a situation where my uncertainty has taken over. Just when you think something is right, there's an entity that places a shadow over the thought. There other night, I picked up a friend to eat dinner with. She finished her finals already, so I asked her out on a date. Not really a date because she calls me "Kuya Joey". Plus, during that dinner, I constantly told her that hooking up would destroy the friendship that we have; in a humoristic way.
The conversations could have lasted a lifetime. Lately, I've been told dialogue with me could last forever. But, why is it that after I'm told that, I can no longer prolong my words and thoughts. I mean, if the person(s) I'm sitting with can endure my wordiness, then let's talk all night. It would be even better if you could debate with me. My view is just as good as your view, maybe better.
I'm amazed how my friendship with you has gotten somewhat close. I don't blame you for your lack of trust towards others, especially guys. Though meeting only 5-6 months ago, you put a lot of trust in me; and I thank you.
We spoke on relationships, past and present. According to the topic, I am confused. I don't know what I want. I do know that I'm cursed with emotions. She says, "You're too emotional." I know I am, but there's no need to say it. My curse hinders me getting close to someone. If they don't show interest, I get terribly hurt, but I get over the pain and move on. But, why is it that, the last two have said the exact same thing. I'll keep this particular information to myself, but it just bothers me why anyone would say something like that to someone. Here it is anyway: "If you meet someone else, you should go for it." What is the point of this? Is it a test? Or is this the way it's done now? Honesty is truly hard, but I just find myself raging with regretful thoughts. This is me...being me.
Who or what is the real me? I am an emotional romantic. I believe in wooing a girl for as long as she accepts it. Do I blame myself for getting involved with something that wasn't going to happen? Probably. Sometimes you think you can fight the urge and deal with the consequences, I guess I'm just not there...yet. Now the confusing part starts off with the complexity of the situation. Recently I was told that my facts weren't straight with a particular individual. In other words, she still likes me, but I assume. Talking with DJ Dose, he exclaims my intentions should not be brought up again. But at the same time, when I saw her last Friday, I was just in awe. It wasn't until after when the thoughts of her re-entered my life. Why can't I let my attraction toward her vanish? I continue to tell myself; Because you were never given a reason to let go.
Bottomline: three females, none of whom I'm dating, seeing, or from the looks of it, talking to. two have told me to they're not ready and hook up with the next girl that comes up. the third...you're there, it's just I fear you.
note: GIRLS SUCK!!!