Being aware of my emotions is one thing I've learned in the past. Before, I would take grasp of the feelings and assume return. Now, I caution in what's out there mainly because my vulnerability isn't the same anymore. The bottomline is...
I realize that patience is a virtue of mine that can't be broken, only if the senses within take hold of what can be changed. I look at life as a limit. There is always a stopping point. In order to take control of this limit, you must control the destiny of time. Instead of being on a waiting list that would never end, I met someone that defined a new happiness, yet new doubts. In thought, I constantly wonder if my doubts are just doubts. I care, but does she care. It shows somewhat physically, but not mentally. Sometimes the world turns quickly, and sometimes the world is in slow motion. I'm not entirely sure which direction the path I see. Believing in both situations is the only decision.
You are not just some thing that I want to be next to. I hope for some thing better.
On the humor side of the cranium, I went to L&L for the first time with Reyna. We sat down and noticed that one of the songs they played made us burst in laughter. It was a slow ballad type of song, and it kept repeating the ending. At first, it was the song, and then a long pause; about 3 minutes. And then suddenly it started playing again. And then the pause. And then the song, the pause, the song, the pause. They decided to finally change the song when we were 'lol'ing.
note: Kellogg's Special K w/Red Berries is yummy.