joey: the new girl in my life makes me believe life is worth it
Yumi: awww, that is beautiful. im happy that ur happy my fren
alan: so did u talk to millet today?
joey: i saw her this morning
a: awww
j: we see a lot of each other
a: cute
j: it's amazing how things just work out between the two of us
a: i'm glad
Lately, I've been happy, yet a bit frightened. The feelings increase wondering if I'm putting forth too much at the given time. With the priorities at hand, I must bare with the necessities that she must endure. I want to be there for her whenever possible. I wonder if she enjoys the time we hangout. The other night she acknowledged that I make a slight difference in her life. Yes, we talk, yet there was a time when my brain stressed on something. Some people ask me if there's one thing I could change about them, what would it be? Obviously, I wouldn't change a thing. Individuality is kept when one has no need to believe in self change.
What goes through my head? At Adobo, I awaited her arrival. The moment our eyes met, I noticed that she wore nothing we shopped for. Oh well! We danced, we laughed, we smiled, she gave the looks as if we were the only two people in the room. We danced face to face and constantly stared into one another's eyes; well, at least I did. I hate the fact that I only find the courage to show affection when I've drank a little alcohol. For a brief moment, I reached for her hand, I closed my fingers over hers, as hers did mine. Although my face wasn't facing hers, my face was glowing. And then she let go. What did I do? I try to think nothing of it because it probably is nothing. It slipped. I shrug. Let thee know this, feeling her hand in mine was like gettin' an A on a test.
..to be continued.