I need to keep myself from getting angry lately. My blood pressure just started to go down and I feel it fluctuating and stuff. My matters go overlooked. My mind hurts. My back hurts and I want to lay down. I want to sleep. I wish I didn't have work tomorrow, but it is something that I cannot help. Maybe we'll have a half day and everything will turn out fine. I get angry over the smallest things. Is it better this way? Better that I don't suppress my frustrations and annoyances, I guess. I could feel my heart pounding pretty aggressively against my chest. Just breathe in and out. Sometimes it hurts. I can hardly breathe normally, my hands cover my chest, and the dizziness comes back.

What do I do? I mean, I've managed to let things go when I'm not doing well in my Halo 3 time, but other things seem to clutter my mind with deep thought. Sometimes it's work, sometimes it's just the thought that my body is not acting the same way. Sometimes when I need a little tender loving care, it's not there. I don't mean to be a stubborn "baby" about it all, but that's what I need...even if that's not how we truly feel I should be treated. Bad heart, bad kidneys, high uric acid, sore muscles, feeling of influenza, headaches...I just want to quit. Game over. No need to deal with my life anymore. Over-dramatic, probably, but I don't care. Whatever, I have work tomorrow, I still feel slightly hot-headed right now. The world will live on and die out in a few years with all the horrors of mother nature going away. She doesn't want or like us anymore. Blah.