I've been letting myself get in the shoot me, I don't care type of mode. I put myself in situations where my mind goes beyond it's capacity. I was aware of this emotion, and I reminded myself to live life. Somewhere down the line, I just let down my guard and found myself in a terrible rut. This is why I must start living life again. Once before, I was running my life pretty straight forward.
What is my meaning of Life?
My meaning of Life is experience what comes at you. Everyday is believed to be your last. Even though we take advantage of the word "tomorrow", humanity will gamble with that fact. I don't see anyone living like today was their last day to live. My goal is to live to 75. The night before I turn 76, I'm going to die on the ice. No one is going to stop me from collapsing on the ice with a heart attack. Other than that, life was made to continue a cycle that has been going on for decades, if not sooner, centuries. We must take on obstacles to achieve our own goals and fulfill those of our mothers and fathers. The most important is to find true love, or some type of love, and extend the cycle.
For now, I've got to stop trying to read the situation.