I need to remember that the world doesn't revolve around one person. My point of view of events will soon lead me to complete over analysis of stupid stuff. Since no one really reads this, I feel comfortable saying what I really feel. I know one person, or two people read this, but I don't mind you guys reading my thoughts. This is what's been over crowding my mind.
A gift was given in order to decrease the number of minutes worrying or wondering what the hell could happen. And now, I'm unsure if doing what I did was the right thing to do. I never know if my decisions are the correct one, especially when I torture myself for nothing. Maybe it's the fact that I'm not completely over my past. Closure was well-known, but that's not the part I'm over. I find myself alone and attempting to fill my life with any somethings. I tried taking up a musical instrument, which was fulfilling for the time being, but now I'm just restless, or just lonely, or maybe I'm just letting my emotions overpower my will to let things go.
I had a good conversation with a certain spontaneous one. For the time we chatted, it felt like "cow bell". You know, a cure. But then she left me in the dark about a blah blah blah. My response to sponny leaving was "YOU SUCK!"
I can't be pcn deprived because I'm immune to it. I enjoyed the time teaching, playing, and stuff, but I was there to help with what I was asked to do.
side note: AHH MAN! The Giants are losing!
From the original topic, I did it, can't take it back, only thing to do is live the life I'm not liking right now. I don't enjoy waking up for work anymore. Time to stay strong and find a frickin' career.
note: FIND A JOB STUPIDHEAD!