(prepare to read and decipher. this is how I used to write)
As the nights shine as dark as the blindness of the day, I become more aware that I'm going no where in my solitude because of the routine of living by the weekly check. The year shall become the source of something anew. The new year has sprung new job opportunities. The ability to become closer to making my first million will never exist, at this rate at least. I'm happy, but my happiness hasn't reached the potential destined for my stance. I've got the charisma, the love, and the determination to become greatness. I've got the resources, the confidence, and the utmost support. I've got the heart, the youthfulness, and the intrigue to find what the hell I'm looking for. By the way, what the hell am I looking for? I'm looking for pennies that can turn into nickels that turn straight into the bronze dollars.
I want to help out with everything that is set on my plate. I've been labeled as an irritant by the one true existence. I don't blame myself, but I do blame my faults. I shrug in shame, yet I raise in mannerism. I will not taunt my way in the direction of the wrong road, but shine through the shimmers of glowing puzzles. Do I ever make sense when pieces of a dickfore get together? Remember that question, "What's a dickfore?" Funny. I still laugh at that. I want to show my appreciation toward a close friend.
Ulo is my friend. He shelters me when I needed a place to get away to. I took my favorite transportation, BART, to Fremont, where Ulo picked me up. Well, I found myself stuck in San Jose for 24-hours. Also, Ulo, if the $5 for the club wasn't for the tsunami victims, you know damn well I wouldn't have gone. Anyway, we were only there for like, less than 2-hours. Then off to Kathleen's to watch Boys and Girls, while Donell fell asleep. Shoot, who said sitting in front of a 15' television with good company isn't fun. Not me! Funny moment of the night, when Ulo threw a rock at Kathleen's window and landed back onto his car. Cool beans!
I miss San Jose, but not enough to move back. I look at all the advantages, but find myself losing myself in the disadvantages. I don't know what that means. I miss all you Akbayan heads. Enjoy the upcoming semester and P.C.N. 2005. Good luck Alexis.
-(fast forward {Friday evening})-
Waiting for Babble to pick me up at work and found myself looking at the Office Depot catalog book. I looked up speakers, space heaters, and that's about it. I played a game of Freecell on one of the display laptops, and then I got a call from my Babble. She's arrived. So long to my co-workers Kashik, Walter, Dee, Raciel, Betty, Mark, and Den. I skipped on over to Babble and gave her the warmest and dearest hug I could give her. I do love her, I really do. So this is how it feels to love someone that has been distant from you for a month...seemed like years. We tried to eat at our Japanese restaurant, Nagano, unfortunately, we couldn't find parking, so we went to Japantown and ate at Sa...some other Japanese restaurant that we ate at once. It was good, but after Babble dropped me off, I felt nauseated. Bleh! Didn't throw up. Now I'm home about to rest my body to sleep for work is right around the corner, or the sunrise. I'm also waiting for Babble to safely get home from work. Call me Babble. I would like to know you're safe.
note: Smooches!!!