Sitting in my living room in the dark
usually, throughout my day i find myself thinking about things that i'd like to put into my blogger journal. although, by the time i wish to enter an entry, i forget my train of thought at the time, i'm way too lazy to write about it anymore, and i end up typing up some rambling, senseless blah that i call written poetry of life. so, what do i think about? well, a couple of us, jerry, adan, irene and myself, visited Lutong Pinoy, my colleagues restaurant next Goldland off of Jacklin. it's a filipino restaurant with kareoke. yum the food was yum. (side comment: i decided to search around on Aivy & Marie's pages to learn how to strike text, but guess what, none of their recent work had none...BLAH!) so we finished our food at about 9pm, so we were able to go visit paulo because he was right around the corner. *well, actually like 3 or 4 exits down I680, that's besides the point* little did i know was that cathleen, my friend whose family owns the restaurant, wanted me to sing, along with my guests, before we left. so time went by and goodness, i couldn't find a single song. ok, maybe i brushed through 5 to10 songs i could possibly do, but maybe i was just trying to kill time. another surprise was that she sang. grrr. well, in politeness, i knew i HAD to sing now. not for her, but for the respect that you give a family when you're at their house...errr, restaurant. so i found two songs, You Are My Song & How Deep Is Your Love. oh well, i can't sing when i'm on the spot. but so what. i don't care. i had fun and we walked out of that place at 1030pm. yes...an hour and a half to find a song. or should i say, grow some balls. i figured out my major gpa, and its still not above a 3.0. damn i suck. i'm going to retake some classes, just so i can get rid of those C's. Out of 8 classes, i have 5 B's and 3 C's. i'm pathetic. well, after this semester, i'm hoping to receive 7 B's, 3 C's and an A. possible. hell yes. may 6B's, 3C's and 2 A's. i need 3.0 n up to gain an intern dammit. well enough of this babble bibble.
my friend, gina-bina, we've been friends for so long, she's like the girl i could possibly call ... anything. yet, she's far. almost 4 years now, and we've NEVER met. goes to show you how desperate i was to find friends 4 years ago. well, i find it normal. people find friends through many different ways. and four years ago, i used aol4.0/japan/pinoypinay21nup chatroom to find the most outrageous yet interesting friends. so gina!? i know you're reading this. you know my life and i know yours, you may think our friendship comes and goes, fades and appears, well, take it from the source, you're my special best pen-pal. *hugs* although we've never met, i'll always be there even when you're taking a detour going back home to oxnard from your frickin' man's house. i'm bitter because you go home so late. girlie, just stay over til morning. or like 6am-7am. that's what some people do at my house.
can u just tell that i don't want to sleep. oh well. happiness and confusion has withered into my life. may it stand strong to lead into hardships and awful other stuff.