Problems occur at random moments, but the feelings never change. For the first time, my feelings are the same, the way they've always been. Honest with words, but my reactions are out of focus. Bottomline, I feel I'm losing something I don't want to lose. I'm not really sure what's happening. Every night before I switch my light out, a picture is used to ensure that life is better, especially when I'm away on trips. There will be a time when things will turnout better. With a simple glance before my flights takeoff, the smile is shown that prepares me for the following occurrences.

Why aren't things getting better? Am I away too long? There's been many people that don't take me seriously. And when someone is introduced to my serious, mean-type way, everything is seen differently. People should take me seriously. Stop trying to put a smile on my face and just listen. My family never takes me seriously. When confidence is needed, I can barely find it. I'm going to stop writing. I don't know where any of this is going. Until later, hopefully things will get better.