As well as I'm here, I might as well update. First off, I'm here because I was trying to include my imeem playlist on my blog, but that was a quick and failed experiment. Reason is because it only plays 30 seconds, like it does if you're not an imeem user. I was introduced to imeem by Camille a couple of weeks back. Ever since then, I've managed to include 20 songs on my playlist. It's fun. I now have a place to store and listen music that I want to listen to. And it's easy.

So far, 2008 has brought a lot of emotion. Things that make you think about who you are, who I want to be, and who I want to give myself to. We've come this far, I'm not going to quit now. You are worth my time.

The San Jose Sharks are on a roll...an amazing roll of 10-0-0. Wootooo;laskj;ailjescisne;ilfn39rj[30q29j93920jfwla.

I went to Disneyland at the beginning of this month. Twas fun, wish CAStles was with me. ³halb.

I love her everything. And no one could take that away.

Massive brainfart, it's not even funny.

First, in light of the loving season, here is my response to my friend's away message which stated, "If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?" Here we go, I IM'd her:

love is blind because people don't see it as love anymore, they mistake it for lust. some couples will ridicule the "i love you" saying when they really should be saying "i lust you".

I'll accept any reactions to this response, just email me at joshgumbi@sbcglobal.net

Anyway, with that out of the way, I may continue with that after I release my opinions on Macitosh Vs. Windows.

Being bombarded with Macbooks where ever I go, you think I would jump on the wagon and get myself a nice, black-covered Macbook with all the trimmings of a great designer or producer...or whatever you could possibly put Windows to shame with. The great design, the flexible, the weight, and the fact that errors are a thing of the past seem to coat this technology with what computer user's want and need. OH HELL YES! But wait, I weep and find myself a certain so many dollars thinner because I spent money on what I didn't really need to get. If it isn't broken, don't fix it. Yes, believe that way, but...YES, there is a but...if you broke it, you shouldn't be using it.

Noticing from even my work environment, computer user's are very impatient, unless your Mr. Slowski from the Comcast commercial. I admit, I'm a bit impatient sometimes when I find myself waiting for a certain Windows box to close because it no longer wishes to do what I want it to. But in time, software will develop bugs that come from your constant clicking of keyboard keys or right-clicking the mouse button. All I say is..."GEEZ, relax." Everytime you see the (Not Responding) in the Title bar of your application, usually Firefox, it is just thinking still. If you don't want to wait, restart your computer. By the way, if you find yourself waiting for your Windows computer to stop thinking, YOU PUT TOO MUCH SOFTWARE or JUNK on it. In this world, there's unlimited hard drive space, TRUE, but damn, you have no idea what RAM is, so you neglect the fact that the RAM can't take all your impatience. Guess what, your PC is fighting with you because you've fed it so much, it wants to recycle all it's contents.

You're in luck, PCs and Macs have bestfriends. They're called EXTERNAL HDs. Use them and abuse them, they don't care. PC users, the solution to your computer woes is not spending so much money and buying a Mac. Unless you're using Windows PCs, such as Toshiba, Compaq, Gateway laptops, from my experience, these brands are worth crap in the long run. It's made so you need to buy a new laptop every couple of years. Macbooks, from what I see, damn, the battery is like non-existent. It's like the macbook is powered by the electrons in the air. My point is, the battery does not deteriorate. True with that fact, but what about the business laptops that go flying around the world. Probably hard to prove my point because no one I know uses a Macbook for business trips. Here's a chart:

	PC	Mac
School Art Engineering Business Computer Science Nursing	X X X X	X X X
Gaming	X
Email	X	X
SOHO(network)	X	X
Videography Music Producing		X X
Designing		X

So, as you could see, if you're more on the non-technical side of software, feel free to use a Mac. As for free-lance software developers, from reading other articles, Apple seizes the use of developing your own software applications. I could be completely wrong.

In conclusion, would I buy an Apple computer in the near future, I'm still on the No side. Why? Because it's not necessary. It's like me buying an Xbox 360. Was it necessary? Sort of. If I wanted to play Halo 3 at home or Call of Duty 4 at home, then yes, it's necessary. It's a great investment that I use daily. Would I use my Macbook daily, not likely because I'm satisfied with my HP 7250 desktop computer with Video Media technology.

To all my Apple user friends, Paulo, Gerstein, Donnell, Camille, Alexis, Alan, Chris...I have so many resources of using a Macbook, so why buy my own.

Sitting in my hotel room could really get me back into my blog. While watching Everybody Loves Raymond, the episode started with Raymond and Debra eating out for Valentine's Day. The only conversation they could think of is talking about the kids, about what's in front of them (or butter), or about another couple. Where am I going with this?

What happens when there's nothing else to talk about? Is the presence alone good enough? In the show, it came to the conclusion that the silent presence of someone special means comfort, security, and sheer love that makes what once was awkward silence...a connection of love. Now you ask, what is love? Don't ask, I cannot give you your definition of love. I have mine, you have your own. It is better to keep your own ideas and opinions on this subject. People will ridicule your thoughts about this subject. It's not worth the debate. Leave the "back and forth" to politics or subjects that are more concrete.

Next time you sit with your significant other, look into his or her eyes. Do you still get that feeling in your stomach that forces you to smile and brings your lips to kiss theirs. I do. But instead of a kiss, I get a finger attempted to go into my anus. No, I don't like that. Geez. But yes, eye contact still puts the smile on my face.

Hello 2008!

Ok, here goes...

What's the deal with respect? It seems over-exaggerated. People's pride increases when something they are familiar with or connected with involves them in like the 4th degree. Am I just being blunt and lost all feeling of what people care about? Probably. I am who I am. Humans do not gain respect by where they are from, but who they are. Sometimes, even the person they are really doesn't matter. Irritated is the perfect that explains how I feel right now. Caring about your culture is fine, but when you live your life by it, you got problems. Move forward. Culture is about remembering where you came from, not continuing to live by it. This is just my opinion, but representing where you're from is like cheering for a team...it only works when you're present and dies when it's not faced with diversion.

I really don't know where I'm going with this. The thought just entered my mind and I'm frustrated with the word respect. Everything should be based on humor. If you base your life on humor, you won't lose too much, you won't be so irritated, and anger will not be a necessity in your life. Get over it, move on, and keep smiling. Ahhhh, I still feel like my point isn't getting across. Hmmm...

Screw respect. It only turns into sadness and madness. I am a hypocrite. Just smile and make fun of life. That's what life had given me for 2007. Here's to you 2008...*throwing bricks through windows and popping all those Christmas lights I still see. By the way, Christmas just isn't the same when things keep changing. One year you needn't wish for a thing, and the next, you just wish, pray, hope things would just be the way they were before; well, except for Christmas 2 years ago.

That feeling of joy and happiness never came. Too much work. Too much pressure. I just want to lay down and die a little more each day.

The End. Good bye. No more posts from JoshGumbi. It's over.

Expired...EXPIRED!??!?!?! Noooooooo. Lol. Just kidding. I didn't realize my domain name had expired until 2 or 3 people told me. How have I been? Tired, sleepy, pudgy. The past few days, weeks have been blah blah blah. A few trips here and there. The weather has been extremely cold. My feet feel frozen. I've been trying to warm them up, but nothing is working. I should try walking, but it's cold outside. The Sharks game is on, so I'm happy for the time being. Warriors just lost, but blah on that. Go Go Google!

ps. Don't make them lose. lol

It's finally happened to me. By ways of passing up a truck on my way to work, another car decides to cut in front and do the same thing. I don't mind what just happened, ain't no thang. Although, it does bother me when we get so close to the the entrance to the freeway, that she decides to slow down, not allowing me to get in front of the truck. My opinion, I think she's being a careless driver and not paying attention to those around her. Imagine being on Berryessa heading east to enter 680 going north, in the left lane. You're ahead of a truck, but not enough to switch to the right lane because the car in front of the truck had slowed down almost getting rear ended by the truck. So, to avoid danger, I speed up next to the car, which at that moment , the truck switches lanes and gets behind me. I peek into the red slow car and notice that the person inside was looking at her driver's side mirror. She begins to speed up and I nearly clip her back left bumper, while avoiding a collision with the truck behind me. Wait! That's not the end.

The woman in the red car is on the loop and nearly runs off the road to the left then takes a sharp cut to her right and passes the white lines and goes partially in the dirt. By the way, I'm kind of laughing because this woman is being the most irresponsible driver and I hope she crashes, burns and hopefully gets her license taken from her. Ok, she's on strike 2 with me. Guess how she strikes out.

Not even on the freeway yet, her merging skills are awful. Usually when you merge, you try to stay on the right side and looking over your shoulder to see if you could get in the lane heading onto the freeway. This is what she does. She gets in the middle of the lanes and gets rear ended by the car trying to exit onto Berryessa. She loses control and goes up the under slope and into the dirt. I guess her hands weren't on the wheel. Luckily there was no one behind me, or else I would've been hit too.

I gave both parties my story and saying no one at fault. It happens, but the woman, I may add, had the ugliest makeup job done ever. lol. If you're going to drive, then drive. Don't eat or anything else. Stupid drivers and good drivers who get pushed down because of stupid drivers.

I need to keep myself from getting angry lately. My blood pressure just started to go down and I feel it fluctuating and stuff. My matters go overlooked. My mind hurts. My back hurts and I want to lay down. I want to sleep. I wish I didn't have work tomorrow, but it is something that I cannot help. Maybe we'll have a half day and everything will turn out fine. I get angry over the smallest things. Is it better this way? Better that I don't suppress my frustrations and annoyances, I guess. I could feel my heart pounding pretty aggressively against my chest. Just breathe in and out. Sometimes it hurts. I can hardly breathe normally, my hands cover my chest, and the dizziness comes back.

What do I do? I mean, I've managed to let things go when I'm not doing well in my Halo 3 time, but other things seem to clutter my mind with deep thought. Sometimes it's work, sometimes it's just the thought that my body is not acting the same way. Sometimes when I need a little tender loving care, it's not there. I don't mean to be a stubborn "baby" about it all, but that's what I need...even if that's not how we truly feel I should be treated. Bad heart, bad kidneys, high uric acid, sore muscles, feeling of influenza, headaches...I just want to quit. Game over. No need to deal with my life anymore. Over-dramatic, probably, but I don't care. Whatever, I have work tomorrow, I still feel slightly hot-headed right now. The world will live on and die out in a few years with all the horrors of mother nature going away. She doesn't want or like us anymore. Blah.

Deleted. A post that probably made my situation with someone on the sour side. With the exception of deleting a blog post, I, personally, over-stepped my boundaries and my own words. With my utter apologies, I bid farewell to this blog and I will see you guys on a new day. But, I was able to save some bits and pieces.

I'm sort of annoyed right now. What else could I write about? I'm going to publish this and start another.

People make mistakes that belongs to the forgive and forget category, and some end with a life enriching experience that teaches or burns a lesson in them forever. Or, the no remorse category where a person just doesn't care...I will never be like this. My heart is too big to not care about someone's feeling. And if I'm a hypocrite for saying so, comment or email me at joshgumbi@sbcglobal.net.

Not that anyone cares, but my time improved with the 3x3 Rubik's cube. I went from 4 minutes 3 seconds to 3 minutes 2 seconds

Not that anyone cares, but my time improved with the 3x3 Rubik's cube. I went from 4 minutes 3 seconds to 3 minutes 2 seconds.

Although this was posted so long ago, I improved my time to under 2 minutes. (08/19/08)

I never got back to you on my last entry. Oh well, it happens. November looks like an upbeat month, with Thanksgiving about to roll around the corner. The best part of this month is the three, yet three, paychecks. I'm going to attempt to save my whole second paycheck...yum. The perks of being salary isn't as great as hourly, yet my job doesn't really do the overtime thing. Plus, the on-call phone has included pay with it which means more money. Woohoo! This month is filled with Scorpio's who endure birthdays with happiness, excitement, and the spirit of good tidings. Thanksgiving will pass us like the turkey wings that I enjoy eating, BLACK FRIDAY will go quickly once again and me not needing to make my way to these crazy stores. Maybe I'll try this year. Might as well since we will be playing Halo until 4am.

Be right back...maybe. lol

Look I'm back and motivated...


Once upon a time...
...there was a man who was granted one wish. He was given three days to come up with this wish before the wish would not happen. The man didn't think anything of it, until he began to think of all the things he never had. As a young boy, years before he found himself in a candy store where he could not resist the temptation to buy everything in the store. Unfortunately, he only had a couple coins given to him by his grandma to buy dinner. The little boy turned around, left the candy store with the same possessions. Walking sadly down the street, he promised himself that one day he'll own the world. Between the time of this tragedy and this wish, he was blessed with a wonderful wife and children to bring happiness and hope into his life. So, knowing what he had already, a wish was hard to come by, even with all the things he never had. Minutes before his wish was bound to vanish forever, he granted himself a wish that would last forever. He wished for nothing. Suddenly the wish was stunned with this man's unselfish gesture. The wish granted this man and his family a farewell and disappeared. Although the man was confused why he out of many would be granted a wish. Later, he was given a letter that was unbelievable to even his eyes. The power of the wish brought warmth to those around this man.

We can't all have what we wish for, but knowing that there's someone to keep us from wanting more, we'll continue to be happy.

written by Josh Gumbi on 11/08/07

October

The month of October could be remembered in great detail. A majority of this month was preparing for a softball tournament, finalizing preparations for a family member's wedding reception, and preparing for that special first day after the month ends. Plus, the Xbox 360 console entered my life later in the month that keeps me up later than usual at night. The return of the Socom night, but this time we're fighting as either Spartans or Covenant scum.

For now, I'll write that introduction. I will continue this at a later time.

Who reads this still? Seriously. I hardly even jot now the ideas in my head. Whatever. Here's what I'm thinking.

Either last Friday, or even Thursday was the last time I saw you. This week seems so long that I continue to miss you. It sounds so sincere when I hear you say I miss you to me. Well, your show is this weekend. It has been a frustrated one for you from what I've noticed. Sometimes you must endure such pressure in order to fulfill your passions, but on the hand, we could all use a really good bear hug. I sit here with my new game, NHL08, to temporarily replace the attention you are unable to give me. Hoy! You're doing your stuff. I understand. Do it, in the meantime, I'm here scoring goals against the video game computer. Talk to you soon. I hope run-through stuff was fun.

I want to perform Jersey Boys on stage, as Frankie Valli's role. I know I can't hit those high parts, but man, it seems fun, esp. when at work listening to the soundtrack. Sigh.

Oh. 2 more days until her birthday. Yay! You get a shower today. I apologize for keeping the carpet and table in you.

These disorders happening puts fear in my eyes and those around me. Am I not meant to live a longer life? I keep hearing bad news after bad news. Well, I must do what I must and live life to my fullest. I assume I'll get through this tough time. Tell you the truth...I'm scared. Nothing I do fixes my problems. It seems like my body is going through a train wreck. Doc says I'll be fine, but I may experience pains and extreme fatigue. I asked, do I still go to work? She said yes. So, I sit here at work with pains under my ribs. I do not call out for pity, I just want those that care to be informed. Imagine that.

I've searched online for a few hours now. My search resulted with no outside foods as fast food restaurants, deli foods, sit down spots...what could I eat? Home cooked food. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

LOW SODIUM DIET OR DIE

I choose the Diet. I found the following from http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=336

Ok, a little extreme because I don't believe someone could die from gout, or can they? More googling here I come. One of the main motivators out there is working out with someone. Well, here's the information I found. Knowing this helps me because I turned down a pizza like 4 times yesterday. Sheeeeesh. Diet starts yesterday!!!!

Cutting Down on Salt

Limiting sodium — which we get through salt, baking powder, baking soda and other substances in foods we eat — is one of the most important things that people with heart failure can do. Sodium makes the body hold on to fluid. To pump the added fluid, the heart has to work harder. People with heart failure shouldn't put this extra strain on their hearts.

Also, too much salt can worsen symptoms like swelling and shortness of breath and cause weight gain. If those symptoms become severe, the person may need to be admitted to the hospital.

Physicians often recommend keeping salt intake below 2,300 milligrams (mg) per day for most people. This is about one teaspoon of salt. However, for people with heart failure, recommended sodium intake is no more than 2,000 mg per day. Most people eat considerably more than this, so it's likely that a person with congestive heart failure will need to find ways to cut down on salt.

Here are some tried-and-true strategies for reducing sodium intake. Start small and gradually work up to bigger changes. (We've tried to arrange the strategies that way.)

Tips on table salt

• Take the salt shaker off the table.
• Cook without salt.
• Discuss using salt substitutes with your doctor.

Limiting salt when you cook

• Avoid any seasonings that taste salty, including:
  
  • bouillon cubes
  • cooking sherry or cooking wine
  • chili sauce
  • meat tenderizer
  • seasoned salts
  • soy sauce
  • steak sauce
  • tamari
  • Worcestershire sauce
• Instead, try cooking with low-salt seasonings, such as lemon juice, vinegar and herbs.
• Drain and rinse canned foods before preparing them to remove some of the salt.
• Substitute fresh fruits and vegetables and other low-sodium foods for canned and processed foods. Use canned vegetables with no salt added. Select brown rice or plain white instead of flavored rice (such as chicken- or beef-flavored, or any rice that comes with a packet of powdered seasoning).

Avoiding high-sodium foods

This recommendation is probably the hardest to follow, because so many convenience foods (like packaged meals and soups) and snacks (potato chips and popcorn) are high in sodium. But most of us take in more sodium through these foods than by using table salt. That's why it's essential to cut back and eventually eliminate them. The foods below are usually high in sodium (but read the labels, because some may be available in a low-salt or unsalted form):

• Canned soups and dry soup mixes
• Canned meats and fish (buy water-packed tuna or salmon instead)
• Ham, bacon and sausage
• Salted nuts and peanut butter
• Instant cooked cereals
• Salted butter and margarine
• Processed meats, such as deli items and hot dogs
• Prepared mixes (pancake, muffin, cornbread, etc.)
• Prepackaged frozen dinners (unless one serving has less than 400 mg of sodium)
• Preseasoned mixes (tacos, chili, rices, sauces, gravies, etc.)
• Snack foods (pretzels, potato chips, olives, cheeses, pickles)
• Salad dressings
• Fast food

Choosing low-sodium alternatives

• Read food labels to check salt content (listed as "sodium"). Start with what's in the cabinet right now, so you can stop buying any high-sodium foods.
• People with heart failure should watch out for the various forms of sodium (for example, sodium alginate, sodium sulfite, sodium caseinate, disodium phosphate, sodium benzoate, sodium hydroxide, monosodium glutamate or MSG, sodium citrate).
• Check your medicine cabinet. People with heart failure should avoid headache or heartburn medicines that contain sodium carbonate or bicarbonate.
• Look for canned vegetables labeled with “no salt added.” Look for "low-salt" or "low-sodium" labels on cans and packages. This label isn't allowed on the can or package unless the food has 140 milligrams or less sodium per serving. However, it's still important to read the label to see exactly how much it does contain. The less salt, the better!

I have been tired lately. Unsure why, lack of sleep, too much Halo 3, softball practices...well, at least today isn't that bad. Sitting at my desk, my body and mind got a little tired, but not that far were sleep had overwhelmed me. Nothing really to update. Until later on, keep doing what you're doing people. I love you all...except you and you. lol

I quit AkbayanSJSU...





...when I get paid back my $1500.

Of course, I've been away from the blog life the passed few months, but who cares...I don't. My thoughts seem to gather while driving either to or from work. It's the thirty-plus(one-way) minutes that gives me a chance to charge my brain with life's tragedies and horrors. Not particular just those aspects, but happy times too. You've just entered the brain sector of...JOSH GUMBI.

Bad drivers
Speaking of driving to and from work, sometimes my thoughts are interrupted by the likes of bad drivers. What is a bad driver? There are so many bad drivers they might as well take off the protectors of the highway. Speeders, slowskis, text messagers, phone talkers, eaters, sleepers(lol- but it happens), tailers, lane changerers, and the list goes on. When driving, the main focus is getting to your destination as fast you can, no matter the dangers. Wrong! I don't expect you to read on to find out how I drive. I drive damn good. But that's all I say, I don't want to be criticized or be considered a hypocrite. Even the best drivers, like myself, have faults and run into certain difficult situations. Stay focused. People assume driving is like walking. Knowing the ground is there, we could maneuver in any direction (well, of course you can't go in the up position, dummy), but cars don't work that way. Next time you get into a car, don't click it to avoid the ticket, click it to save your life and possibly those in your vehicle. Road signs are made for a reason. And if you know the car behind you is speeding up behind you, attempt to get out of their way so they won't have to cut someone(s) off. Stay alert. Use your mirrors. Constantly move your eyes and head to know what your surrounding road looks like. Stupid drivers will never go away, but have enough brain power to learn.

Guilty
I interfered twice this week in situations that didn't involve me, which caused a near tragedy. All I remember is reading, your not in it anymore. Maybe I'm not, but it's my only place of real acceptance while growing up. Pretty lame you may think, but it changed me to be who I am now. Would I be this person without it, probably not. Plus, I need to get paid back still. I'm not leaving until I get paid back. Lol.

Halo 3
Awesome. Two nights of playing until 230am. Not good for my worklife, but goodness, the graphics are superb. The Campaign is short. They put a lot of effort into the storyline and art, they shortened the run and gun significantly. We could assume the campaign would be short lived by the enormous outcome of online players. So, who cares, the graphic setup is what we all expected.