After College

You ask yourself what do you left to do right before you finish what seems like a lifetime of education and schooling. The common path is to find that career or job. Would you say it easier said than done, definitely? Unless you take the proper steps to preparing for the rest of your life. Some may be so entertained during college that post-college could take them to a sudden downfall. The thought of an internship is the excuse why they hadn't secured a decent career. On the other hand, laziness surpasses all types of excuses from what I've seen. College prepares students for the preferred field they plan on embarking. Suddenly, the freshmen year is over and their high school grade point average turned into nothing. Why? Socializing, parties, skipping class.

We all, at least 95%, find ourselves in desperate situations where we discover low marks could lead to working at McDonald's for the rest of our life. Luckily for me, McD's never hired me. A lot of places rejected my applications because I was over-qualified. Unfortunately, when it came to finding a career in the field I graduated in, I was under-qualified; that's what I believed.

Employment isn't about what you know or who you know, it's about knowing you could do a job you have little or sometimes no experience in. Don't kill yourself trying to find a software programming job when you've never touched a computer. Think obvious, not oblivious. Never give up and don't let your rejections get the best of you. Employers can't take chances in what they don't know. You put yourself on the market (sending out your resume), you sell your knowledge (interview process), and you make sure you could back up everything you tell them. With enough rejections, you'll discover more knowledge with what other employers are looking for. And when you know this, you grab hold of that and make it your own.

Don't stop learning. Take advantage of life experiences because they will always benefit what is out there. Network your skills to different locations.

Ok, you found yourself with a high paying career that you've finally got settled into. But...you find yourself pressured and uncomfortable with the work environment. Don't put up with it, but also don't let out your aggressions. Take action with your life and fight for your happiness.

Quick brief: Joey graduates May 2003. By August 2003, he moves back to San Francisco and finds a 30k JOB with benefits with Safeway.com. Job involves delivering groceries to customers to the North-Eastern residents of San Francisco. Hard job, but first job out of college. By October 2004, Joey gets terminated for failing to abide by employment policies (I accepted tips that totaled up to $7,000). By late-November 2005, Joey is desperately hired at Office Depot, fulltime furniture representative (Never sold a piece of furniture in my life). Within a month, Joey is qualified for management position but declines. Reason for decline stands at career availability. I didn't want to get involved too much in something I knew I wouldn't stay at. By January 2006 (14 months later), Joey moves back to San Jose as the full-time Tech Lead at the new Office Depot. After a couple months, Joey is once again offered with management position...declines. I'm not going to settle for a retail job. In mid-July 2006, Joey applies for PickPoint Corporation as a field technician and qa/qc tester. Joey's first day at PickPoint begins his life as a career-made Engineer.

Don't let anyone tell you to settle for something. Make yourself available. Sell and make sure you're bought. You're not a hooker, but you could think like one.

Inspiration, motivation, and determination.

Weekends

This past weekend was filled with a joy, laughter, fun, child-like, and understanding. What I could say is that life is a great feeling and cherish what you have of it. My God-sister presented us with the gift of life this past weekend. I'm unsure how to spell the name, but it is Skyler. Ten years before that, my younger brother, James, was born. Who would of thunk it.

We celebrated my brother's birthday at Circuits of Alameda where kids and probably teenagers can go to workout while doing what we do best nowadays, play video games. At first, my brothers and I were a little hesitant to play the games, but after eating cake, we were ready to jump into it. San Jose should have one of these. We shall see.

No dance practice this past Sunday. This is how it'll be after pcn '07 is over. It's a relaxing feeling. Please say this is your last one. No more teaching. No more. I can't do it. *faint

The look on your face when...

So, the other day I was browsing the Internet and was directed to a link that I thought I'd never go to. On the down side, there's a lot of websites you won't find me at. I can't bare to find myself on an online store that didn't involve technology, computers and so forth.

This day, I came into the dreaded online jewelry site for a certain person that I will remain nameless. Although this store is in downtown San Francisco, I decided to think not once, twice, or a couple few times, a date was coming up that really doesn't make a difference, but I wanted to make it special. I got a gift that I thought you'd enjoy. It's not much, it costs little less than a couple dollars, but the meaning behind is that it's from me.

So, come 27th, we shall meet each other at the crossroads and define the rest of ours as individuals. Kthxbye. ^_^

Scared & Waiting

From the moment my four wheeled machinery left, the rain had started to get teary-eyed. My emotions started to tighten. My body was uncertain with doubt and scared wonder. I wanted to believe everything would be normal. But, time kept ticking and little by little, the freeway was under me passing one accident after another. Looking ahead I saw one flare turn to almost thirty. My breathing got deeper, my eyes itchy, and the interval between calls reduced. I was scared. I don't usually jump into my car and go off looking for someone or something. As lazy as I am, I care. Do I care too much? I hope I do because that's how I am. Sigh.

I was most relieved when I got a call.

Lenten season

As much as I am non-practicing Catholic, I do obey the 'laws' of the Lord. Not necessarily laws, but obligations to better yourself as a person under God's kingdom. Is there such thing as religion that it scatters out to different beliefs now? There's more religions than people now, so to speak. Anyway, I've decided to take on the faith of believing that we're to sacrifice what we see as beneficial to expand our further extents. So, my list goes:

-acting gay.
-making fun of Alexis.
-cook more.
-eat out only once or less a week.
-jog/walk every other day and on weekends. (so, Sun/Tues/Thurs/Sat)
-clean room and keep clean.

I shall try and I shall succeed. No meats Friday. Chicken isn't meat! If it is warm-blooded, it is meat. Leaving me with cold-blooded food.

Rondalla practice

Imagine being in the first row of a concert and experiencing every aspect of being in that section. This is what it's like to be playing with an organized, stringed rondalla. Last Friday evening was the experience I had waited for almost a decade. With my pick in one hand and bandurria in the other, it was another stepping stone into learning and educating myself with one of Filipinos greatest identities, musicianship. Although I made no big difference that evening, my goal had jumped into my lap ready to be built. I listened, watched, and endured the sounds of the Likha rondalla. With enough practice, my hands will be able to play like that. My learning curve is linear, but will soon enough be exponential. It is worth going to these practices because practicing alone is a big bore. Hearing all the parts is what helps you get better. No baby steps here. Just play and I'll catch on.

Thank you for 'holding my hand' this one time.

Drama...already?

Teaching and learning, learning and teaching. The worst part is when someone teaches something they were taught by someone else and completely destroys it. Most of the time, it's the basic move that is taught throughout generations. If someone enjoys teaching, they'll always remember grace, posture, flow, and character. For any dance, culture, and/or style, it's the presentation that matters most. For example, we have a couple doing a ballroom dance, say...tango. They're doing steps, which is the easy part, but what about how they're portraying such a dance to an audience. Everyone knows that learning a dance means performing it somewhere. Crowds seem to become bored with routine or, as I would call it, blahism.

My point is directed to teachers, choreographers, artists who want their particular story to be told. Like plagiarism, movements are recycled everyday by enthusiastic eyes. One grasps a movement, uses it, tweaks it as their own. Is this appropriate? Would one dance instructor call it stealing? Maybe. But I see it as, use what I've taught/performed, just don't disgrace the move(s).

I've taught, been taught, and mostly like will be teaching in my later years. I enjoy the Pilipino artistic dance genre. All I ask is to learn it to the extent of what's taught, then if finding your own style of teaching is your cup of tea, then do so. Just don't screw it up.

Why is it hard to teach college students? Lol.

Appreciation

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V-Week Starts

V-2007: Flowers, chocolate, and a commercialized Hallmark card...for now. Or maybe it is something completely different. Ok, we all know what to get the females for Valentine's Day, but what are guys default gift? Oh wait, guys aren't supposed to get anything. Isn't that sexist. Why celebrate February 14th then? Because it gives couples a chance to rekindle, start, finish any type of relationship that exists.

Everyday, I extend my arms to hug the way I would hug on V-Day. I treat dinner the way I would. Phone calls continue to be answered. Massages feel the same way. Nothing barely changes. The only thing that changes is...wait there is nothing. The question pops up time and time again, "Why are you so nice to me?" Because I enjoy "smothering" you with as many joys I can offer, plus...you accept the attention.

Sometimes people fit like bread and butter, but most of the time, chemical reactions formulate either erupting or fizz away to continue on to live another day. I hope to be the butter on your bread. lol.

note: my tummy hurts.

Topics topics topics

Safe driving: Now that I've become more aware of my car's capacities, I've learned to maximize the use of the hybrid technology. When driving to work, I find my average speed at 65 to 70mph. I've never noticed how many cars pass me up. Oh well, let them use up their gas. Fortunately, on my way home on Friday, the trip was 33 miles (according to the speedometer), but only used 17 miles from the tank. Yay! That is all.

But not yet.

Driving slow helps me determine the types of dangers drivers put on other drivers. As a hopeful promise, I want other driver's to know I'll stay between the 65 to 75mph mark. Many aggressive driver's care nothing but for themselves. Remember, when you decide to cut someone off, look back into your life and see who is involved. Brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, friends, loved ones. If you hurt one, you hurt many. Sometimes, there's whole families in those cars, there are groups of friends in those cars, there's life. So, before you decide to get behind the wheel, realize your entering into a battle.

Does this entry make sense?

note: Be careful out there.

Love

Is it love when the person you're in love with, or the person you love; either way you see it, could change your personal lifestyle? When you care not for what you did before or how you lived, but in order to share what they long for is what you want for yourself. On the other hand, could love be so simple as to fall foolishly into it. Love could be random, and it could lead to greater or less love. Ask yourself, is it love that drives us to do what we must. Is love the source of our inspiration. I love the things that I do(ie. ice hockey). I also love the people in my life. I imagine myself in a life that will somewhat sacrifice the well-doings of my natural existence, but on the same path that I will benefit a much needed sacrifice to gain precedence on my own life. Everything is on an equilibrium. People, life, work, relationship, and friendship all go by the same guidelines. If we do not follow this, balance doesn't exist, leaving disarray and uncertainty. Thank you for reading. Listen and find your next level.

Runny Nose

My nose is running weird again. A couple weeks ago I took a flu shot in accordance with work requirements. But, I'm noticing that I get sick more often now...more than USUAL.

What's wrong with the world today? Where do I begin. As this is a topic that is not easy to dive into, there's nothing I can really say. The basic way to develop a reasoning behind it all is that the world has rotated off its access.

Where am I in all this chaos? Will chaos overwhelm those around me? Will this stage in life be a day to day thing. I don't know.

2007 is a month nearly down. Work somewhat told me that I'm approved. But not just yet, but most likely. "Night at the Museum" was an excellent movie.

I wish I could write a song to you

...sometimes it just doesn't work out that way. Some wish to look one way for their goals when they should be looking in a different direction. Either way, it all works out in the end, eventually. I went off course on what I really wanted to write about. But that's ok, I can change the topic now.

Writing about it makes me want to tell the whole world. The Internet is the whole world, just depends on who receives the information. You receive my information of 1's and 0's. You also receive my binary code. Everyone is going to receive, so here it is. I love it so much. I pray for it, I do favors for it. There so much I'd do, I just want it to realize what I do. And guess what, it does realize, and appreciate my moves. I hope everyone will find their it.

To find it, go to it.com on the server 129d3kd.

note: Yar.

Really Confused?

I've been put down. Usually, I would brush it off, but this time I can't. Maybe it is true what was told. What can I do? I live my life, I think about the things, the people, the treasures that are bestowed upon me. It is my fault for my actions. I can't change the past, but I can learn from it. I'm bothered and hurt with what I heard. I deserve the truth, and the truth hurts. You read my like a transparent book.

It's easy for people to cheer me up. It doesn't take much. But, on my behalf, why does it take every ounce of strength to do that in return. Maybe suppressing my emotions again is the answer. I need that sense of explosive emotional reaction. If I get mad, I should get mad. How do I know if someone truly wants me if they don't know how to overcome my anger. All I know, tonight, I am weak. Weak-minded. Emotionally weak. Physically weak. My list of issues is growing.

Right now, what was told to me not more than fifteen minutes ago has been forgotten. I've brushed it off. Like I said, you simply call back and tell me something sweet, and I'm back to normal. Like a flash, my emotions have been restored. Why am I like this? I'm either extremely happy or extremely sad. And when you don't see me, I'm in the middle. Yay!

note: 2007 is going to be...good.



ps. I hate holiday texts, unless you're in my network. Just frickin' CALL ME.

Flashback

12/21 - Sharks game with the Ulo, shutout by the Stars.
12/22 - work (Dipping Contest); 1st Baliktad Christmas!!!!
12/23 - stayed in.
12/24&25 - Christmas w/ Family
12/26 - Bear-Y Favorite Christmas exchange. & Super Bad Day.
12/27to30 - Sick.

The past few days of been really up and down. At this time, I just wanted to make sure what I did during this week off of work. As you can see, I really didn't get a chance to do a lot of stuff. Yes, it does suck, mainly because I was sick, but it does happen. I've been thinking about someone lately because I was afraid I would lose the importance of that ongoing adventure.

Sometimes one can forget that just because you hang out with someone a lot, doesn't necessarily mean you're with that person. I want to be with you, I tell you everyday. But, I want happiness to surround you. Maybe, just because I know I'm single, means it's easier to let go of me. Maybe I'm just being super foolish. I can't be spoiled this time. I can only be patient. Patient for you.

Before the days speak out 2007, I'm bound to have a clean room.

Motto from jG

Your happiness comes before mine. If I dare live my life this way, so be it. That's how it was, is and will be.

7 more days

I came into work to see this website come up first (from Aim.com):

Horoscope-Cancer
You may feel uncomfortable with all the attention these days, for you don't necessarily seek the spotlight. You might as well accept the fact that you are quite effective now and everyone will notice. If your intuition is telling you that something isn't right, remember to trust your inner voice. Intense emotions are currently motivating you and others now, and it may feel overwhelming as you try to discern what's most important. You are drawing in a wide spectrum of feelings. If you are afraid of being inundated, have faith in the process of transformation instead of withdrawing into denial.

meaning: My status as follower has diminished into a more positive role, dare I choose to accept it. Words and actions could be said, but will they matter, and will the affects induce my emotions. What's to come from the jG in 2007? You'll see.

This weekend was meant to stay home and bum it for 48 straight hours. The weekend turned into a parking bonanza at both Great Mall and Valley Fair. Oh! People who stop in the middle of a directional path (at the mall) are now on my pet peeve list. When I stop, I look around, and move if someone's moving my way.

Shopping isn't my favorite thing to do in the world, especially during Christmas season. But you got to do it. Sometimes you have to do it with someone special where any emotions can be risen. It happens. So, I say, buy online, it's easier. Girl shopping sucks!

Have you ever wanted or craved a certain food so bad, but found out you could not grasp? I did. This weekend. Argh!

Trying To Forget

It's hard to convert someone back into a friend when you cared about her so much...at one point. I feel the need to defend myself when someone attacks me with what happened in my past. I admit, I hate being doubted or proven wrong. I have pride in my beliefs. Can't I live without someone bringing up my past. I'm going to just stop and not say anything in that direction. From this point, it's only what I care for now, it's only who I love now. And since I'm not afraid to admit, my heart goes out to one person, and yes, her name is Favorite (wink!). Being asked to change my thoughts a few times, my words will only allow me to keep what's hidden longer than thought of. I care for the well-being of my friendships and relationships. My past is only a memory, a photograph made simple in my mind. Saying before thinking has always been a flaw, but it's a lot better than it was before. Thinking what you want to say can be interpreted many ways. If you need me to reiterate, just ask. I'm not complicated, and I don't expect complications in my life. I want/need only a few things, and one main priority is love. I'm in love with you Leclami. No one else.

note: Trusting me is easier than you think.

Being Away

It makes me want you more. It makes home look so far away. There are things I'd rather do than sit in a room. In the arms of one who is miles and miles away sucks. Away from my family, away from a comfort level where appreciation comes from the heart.

Although being on the road has it's perks, I can do without sometimes. It would be nice if someone came with me, but that just doesn't look like it'll happen; at least, not anytime soon.

As I sit in my room, I wonder what I would be doing if I was home. Home in my apartment. Actually, I'll most likely be packing up my stuff at work getting ready to leave.

Taco Hell

According to my feedback, no one cares about what isn't close to them. For instance, the e.coli news on the east coast. My friends care nothing of the sort. But wait, I'm on the east coast. I don't usually eat fast food on the road though, unless it's the ONLY food there is, and sometimes that's the ONLY food there is. But, not this time.

So, is Taco Bell at fault for the food they serve? Sometimes it is, but I don't know what to think. Sometimes outbreaks just aren't found. Just know that the victims don't deserve this. Let's hope they make it through the hard times.

The news is my interest. Not world news, but local news and some nationwide. My health is a big part of my interest group, where I find myself looking at nutrition facts. BUT...I don't eat healthier, I just eat less and go for walks/jogs. Other than that, the world still revolves around me. teehehe.

I'm in New Jersey, sitting at my hotel room desk, watching the Simpson's on the television next to me. This past weekend was fun. I went to my first San Jose State football game. Maybe it's the motivation of a winning/bowl season. Or, maybe because someone asked me to go with them. It was super uber fun. Can't ask for anything more...right now. ha! The Sharks won a hard-fought game against the Redwings. -sigh- I enjoy spending time with the people I love. You guys are the best!!!

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Now a woman who'll kiss on a very 1st date,
Is usually a hussy,
And a woman who'll kiss on the second time out,
Is anything but fussy,
But a woman who'll wait 'till the 3rd time around,
Head in the clouds, feet on the ground,
She's the girl he's glad he's found,
She's his Shipoopi.

Shipoopi, Shipoopi, Shipoopi,
The girl is hard to get.
Shipoopi, Shipoopi, Shipoopi,
But you can win her yet.

Walk her once just to raise the curtain,
Then you walk around twice and you make for certain.
Once more in the flower garden,
She will never get sore if you beg her pardon.

Do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, si, do,
Si, la, sol, fa, mi, re, do.

Squeeze her once when she isn't lookin'.
If you get a squeeze back that's fancy cookin'.
Once more for a pepper-upper,
She will never get sore on her way to supper,

Do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, si, do, si, do,

Now little ol' sal was a No-gal,
As anyone could see,
Look at her now, She's a Go-Gal,
Who only goes for me,

Squeeze her once when she isn't lookin'.
If you get a squeeze back that's fancy cookin'.
Once more for a pepper-upper,
She will never get sore on her way to supper,

Do, re, mi, fa, sol, la, si, do, si, do,

Shipoopi, shipoopi, shipoopi,
The girl is hard to get,
Shipoopi, shipoopi, shipoopi,
But you can win her yet.

(Musical/Dance Break)

Shipoopi, Shipoopi, Shipoopi,
The girl is hard to get.
Shipoopi, shipoopi, shipoopi,
But you can win her yet.

You Can Win Her Yet!


Shipoopi

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Dear You-Bear,

Although I'm thousands of miles away, I'm still constantly thinking of how good it would feel to be there, holding you, laughing with you, being made fun of by you, you are my "vacation". Remember that I will always be your pudgy honey bear. Heart you from now 'til you no longer want it.

Love,

Me-Bear