Socks have been washed!
Every Wednesday and Thursday are my days off. I've constantly tried to get my Friday and Saturdays off, but I've been unsuccessful. Luckily, my weekends are no longer full time. Yay! The only disadvantage is my low paycheck. Fortunately, this Sunday, at 6pm, Bebeh and I will be in San Jose. We were watching Fresh Prince of Bel Air earlier, and during the commercial, our eyes lit up with excitement. We immediately called the toll-free number and found out the website where we could further our search. In little time, we purchased tickets online, printed the tickets out and posted them on the refrigerator. At the American Conservatory Theatre, the Broadway show, Rent, will have their last show in the area on Sunday at 6pm. The last time we saw Rent was in New York, two summers ago. Can't wait to sit in Row 21, Seats 58 & 60. If anyone wants to go, hit up the website www.amtsj.org and let us know if you're going. Yay!
note: Yay Rent! again.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Good morning, Blogger! You've been neglected.
Babble is awake. I moved the car and you still didn't notice I was gone. You must've been really tired. You are now telling me another one of your surreal dreams. By the way, we got another parking ticket. There was street cleaning between six and eight this morning. Phooey!
My work life is getting to the point where I'm ready to find a better job where the pay is four times as much as I make now. Ha! Well, lately, I've been training a bunch of drivers. Carlos, Claudio, Steve, and John have no knowledge of the San Francisco area. The streets are easy to find on a Thomas guide, but the one-ways are extremely high in San Francisco. I'm positive that any new drivers delivering to the financial district will start at 10am and finish about 5pm. The well-trained driver, like myself, could start the same route, at the same time, and finish three hours before them. My point is that our area manager, Sheryl, ruins my day because I'm finishing up my route early hoping that the others are done too. Unfortunately, I call their phones and find out they have 5 or 6 deliveries left. My supervisors don't get along, the drivers don't respect the supervisors, the store managers don't distribute enough hours to the shoppers leaving the drivers to "volunteer" to load our own trucks. In training, we're told the shoppers are to load our trucks in the mornings and while we're at lunch. I haven't clocked out for lunch in almost three weeks. Although, that doesn't stop me from having a lunch. The advantage toward the increase of "milked" hours is that my paycheck is just a little higher than the average.
Disadvantages exceed advantages.
(1) Limits the time I get to spend with my Babble.
(2) My body doesn't have enough time to recuperate for the next day.
(3) Dinner doesn't exist.
(4) Too tired to get anything done at the apartment.
Anyway
During the past few weeks, Babble and I have been trying to maximize the time spent with one another. We went to D&B's for Ted and Paulo's birthday. Fun stuff. The drive home with Babble was great though. I love you Badabbly bear. Can't wait to see what happens next.
note: Dear journal, I love bebeh.
Babble is awake. I moved the car and you still didn't notice I was gone. You must've been really tired. You are now telling me another one of your surreal dreams. By the way, we got another parking ticket. There was street cleaning between six and eight this morning. Phooey!
My work life is getting to the point where I'm ready to find a better job where the pay is four times as much as I make now. Ha! Well, lately, I've been training a bunch of drivers. Carlos, Claudio, Steve, and John have no knowledge of the San Francisco area. The streets are easy to find on a Thomas guide, but the one-ways are extremely high in San Francisco. I'm positive that any new drivers delivering to the financial district will start at 10am and finish about 5pm. The well-trained driver, like myself, could start the same route, at the same time, and finish three hours before them. My point is that our area manager, Sheryl, ruins my day because I'm finishing up my route early hoping that the others are done too. Unfortunately, I call their phones and find out they have 5 or 6 deliveries left. My supervisors don't get along, the drivers don't respect the supervisors, the store managers don't distribute enough hours to the shoppers leaving the drivers to "volunteer" to load our own trucks. In training, we're told the shoppers are to load our trucks in the mornings and while we're at lunch. I haven't clocked out for lunch in almost three weeks. Although, that doesn't stop me from having a lunch. The advantage toward the increase of "milked" hours is that my paycheck is just a little higher than the average.
Disadvantages exceed advantages.
(1) Limits the time I get to spend with my Babble.
(2) My body doesn't have enough time to recuperate for the next day.
(3) Dinner doesn't exist.
(4) Too tired to get anything done at the apartment.
Anyway
During the past few weeks, Babble and I have been trying to maximize the time spent with one another. We went to D&B's for Ted and Paulo's birthday. Fun stuff. The drive home with Babble was great though. I love you Badabbly bear. Can't wait to see what happens next.
note: Dear journal, I love bebeh.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Sunday, September 05, 2004
So you've finally discovered the term of "milking the clock"! Today, I went to work and found myself sweating like crazy. It's that drenchy-type of feeling when you jump into a filthy lake. You know the water is disgusting and dirty, but the feeling of comfort and relief once your skin touches that crisp water, ode to joy. In other words, the weather was blackening my skin once again. Every morning, I forget to put on sunblock or what not, and I go prancing out the door like a dummy. At least I lower my head when I work, or else my face would be pitch black already. A couple weeks ago, Aivy's sister comments about how dark I am. I didn't really say anything, I just sat there and ate my oxtail.
This summer has been the summer of food. More like, the summer of sushi because sushi is in my blood and sweat now. I suppose we could eat something else, but nothing else please's my urge for rolled up rice with, oh must I say it, bbq eel. To this day, I think I've eaten enough sushi/japanese food to last me until the age of 30. -sigh- I want sushi now. When I was in San Diego last week, I ordered this sushi dish called the Kitchen Sink. I forgot what it was, but it was very good. The strange name meant that it would take longer to make since they took forever to make it. It was worth the wait.
Speaking of San Diego, Aivy and I went on a short vacation down to Southern California. I've never been past certain areas down in Los Angeles, so I was eager to find myself awake during most of the trip. First off, the drive down to LA and straight to San Diego took no more than four and a half hours. You can find photos of our trip on Aivy's page. It was a good getaway of sort. The hotel room was splendid, the area where we stayed in San Diego was clean. I want to go back. The best part about the trip was going on another trip with someone I love. I know, how cheesy. It's true. Can't wait for another trip, when we have the money.
This summer has been the summer of food. More like, the summer of sushi because sushi is in my blood and sweat now. I suppose we could eat something else, but nothing else please's my urge for rolled up rice with, oh must I say it, bbq eel. To this day, I think I've eaten enough sushi/japanese food to last me until the age of 30. -sigh- I want sushi now. When I was in San Diego last week, I ordered this sushi dish called the Kitchen Sink. I forgot what it was, but it was very good. The strange name meant that it would take longer to make since they took forever to make it. It was worth the wait.
Speaking of San Diego, Aivy and I went on a short vacation down to Southern California. I've never been past certain areas down in Los Angeles, so I was eager to find myself awake during most of the trip. First off, the drive down to LA and straight to San Diego took no more than four and a half hours. You can find photos of our trip on Aivy's page. It was a good getaway of sort. The hotel room was splendid, the area where we stayed in San Diego was clean. I want to go back. The best part about the trip was going on another trip with someone I love. I know, how cheesy. It's true. Can't wait for another trip, when we have the money.
Sunday, August 22, 2004
I've been preoccupied with my addiction with Socom 2 online. Although, Aivy and I will be heading out to the Southern regions of California. We hope to leave after work on Tuesday evening and be back by early Saturday morning. I'm able to call in sick for one day, but two days is stretching it. The trip consists of Los Angeles and San Diego. We haven't been out of the city since last summer. I think its about time to head out and explore something new.
I finally found the solution to my router problems. My first router purchase was from the brand name D-Link, which didn't work after how many times I installed and configured the network. Eventually, Aivy and I made our "weekly" trip to Best Buy, where we exchanged the crappy D-Link router for the infamous Link-Sys technology. After the second installation/configuration, BINGO!, it works. Now, Aivy can go online, while I play my online games (OK! Socom, Go Barrelman).
The idea of buying a house in the Redwood Shores area has come up. That place is like my dream location, mainly because of the water ways that come up around the neighborhood. Listening and waking up to the flow of water is soothing, like living on a house boat. Have any of you seen the preview for that new movie where two scuba divers are stuck in the middle of the water? If I had a boat, I would look for them, but I'm not much of a sailor.
Speaking of movies, I haven't witnessed a summer with so many good movies. I don't know what it is, but hey, they're great. Let's name a few: Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle...oh wait, that's all I can say. I must say, it was a great movie. I do want to see a bunch of other movies, I just can't think of them right now. I had a date for the Harold & Kumar movie, her name is Bebeh.
note: Does anyone sit at home alone and talk to their teddybears anymore?
I finally found the solution to my router problems. My first router purchase was from the brand name D-Link, which didn't work after how many times I installed and configured the network. Eventually, Aivy and I made our "weekly" trip to Best Buy, where we exchanged the crappy D-Link router for the infamous Link-Sys technology. After the second installation/configuration, BINGO!, it works. Now, Aivy can go online, while I play my online games (OK! Socom, Go Barrelman).
The idea of buying a house in the Redwood Shores area has come up. That place is like my dream location, mainly because of the water ways that come up around the neighborhood. Listening and waking up to the flow of water is soothing, like living on a house boat. Have any of you seen the preview for that new movie where two scuba divers are stuck in the middle of the water? If I had a boat, I would look for them, but I'm not much of a sailor.
Speaking of movies, I haven't witnessed a summer with so many good movies. I don't know what it is, but hey, they're great. Let's name a few: Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle...oh wait, that's all I can say. I must say, it was a great movie. I do want to see a bunch of other movies, I just can't think of them right now. I had a date for the Harold & Kumar movie, her name is Bebeh.
note: Does anyone sit at home alone and talk to their teddybears anymore?
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Who is your BF/GF? Aivy Roma Torres Cordova
How long have you 2 been together? 20 months 4 days
What is your nickname for him/her? Babble, bebeh, badabble
How did you meet? Triforce retreat/picnic at Lake Elizabeth
What was your first impression? she's late. i don't blame her, not everyone could be here on time
When did you first become interested? when she woke up at F'games 2002. I gave her a sensual head massage
What did you do on your first date? tried to watch Rules of Attraction, although, it was out of theatres already, so we went to csuh and talked in the parking lot.
How long were you 2 dating before becoming a couple? about a month and a half
How and where was your first kiss? 5th floor hallway of the Marriot outside my room, me against the wall, me pulling her toward me.
Who said "I love you" first and was it romantic? Bebeh did. Although, it just came out.
Whats a typical date for you 2? MAC shopping. no really, getting a bite to eat.
How often do you 2 see each other? everyday.
Who pays more often? whoever has money at the time.
What talents does your BF/GF have? reading comprehension, vocabulary
Sweetest thing he/she did for you? when I get home, I get notes from her telling her that she loves me. I know its small, but very sweet.
The nicest gift? Stitch with little ice skate shoes from Build-a-bear
His/Her best personality trait? comic/sexual/racist humor. a teddybear cuteness
Most annoying thing about him/her? telling me that i'm uncoordinated with clothes.
Why do you love him/her? she makes me glow, she makes me feel wanted, we laugh at the same things, we've become one.
What are the best memories you`ve had with him/her? our trip to NYC, trips to LA, waking up and sleeping next to her. Watching Simpsons and South Park episodes.
note: August is a weird month.
How long have you 2 been together? 20 months 4 days
What is your nickname for him/her? Babble, bebeh, badabble
How did you meet? Triforce retreat/picnic at Lake Elizabeth
What was your first impression? she's late. i don't blame her, not everyone could be here on time
When did you first become interested? when she woke up at F'games 2002. I gave her a sensual head massage
What did you do on your first date? tried to watch Rules of Attraction, although, it was out of theatres already, so we went to csuh and talked in the parking lot.
How long were you 2 dating before becoming a couple? about a month and a half
How and where was your first kiss? 5th floor hallway of the Marriot outside my room, me against the wall, me pulling her toward me.
Who said "I love you" first and was it romantic? Bebeh did. Although, it just came out.
Whats a typical date for you 2? MAC shopping. no really, getting a bite to eat.
How often do you 2 see each other? everyday.
Who pays more often? whoever has money at the time.
What talents does your BF/GF have? reading comprehension, vocabulary
Sweetest thing he/she did for you? when I get home, I get notes from her telling her that she loves me. I know its small, but very sweet.
The nicest gift? Stitch with little ice skate shoes from Build-a-bear
His/Her best personality trait? comic/sexual/racist humor. a teddybear cuteness
Most annoying thing about him/her? telling me that i'm uncoordinated with clothes.
Why do you love him/her? she makes me glow, she makes me feel wanted, we laugh at the same things, we've become one.
What are the best memories you`ve had with him/her? our trip to NYC, trips to LA, waking up and sleeping next to her. Watching Simpsons and South Park episodes.
note: August is a weird month.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Today
Woke up and held Aivy and listened to her and played socom 2 online while aivy looked at offline websites and then got up to go eat but first went to go pay rent over on noriega and deposit some money at wamu so i have enough to pay rent and then went to the post office so i can mail my cell phone bill which led us all the way back to eat at yuen lee's over on broadway and stockton where we ate mostly seafood and rice although we had to pay for parking because there was none around fortunately aivy bought some pocky covered with chocolate almond & strawberry cream for me until we got back to the car and went to get pedicures near our apartment.
-pedicure- felt good, my feet are soft, my toenails are smooth. i think the lady massaging my legs with lotion tried to look at my nuts. Yikes!
Joey's Embarrassing Moments: (Leaving an Akbayan cabinet meeting at the modules while the African American Commencement Committee is next door)
Joey: "Don't even trip Ted, I'm black...from the waist down."
Ted: "Dude, do you know who's next door?"
Joey shocked.
note: Know what you're saying before you say it.
2nd Anniversary to JoshGumbi's blogspot (writing since August 1st, 2002)
Woke up and held Aivy and listened to her and played socom 2 online while aivy looked at offline websites and then got up to go eat but first went to go pay rent over on noriega and deposit some money at wamu so i have enough to pay rent and then went to the post office so i can mail my cell phone bill which led us all the way back to eat at yuen lee's over on broadway and stockton where we ate mostly seafood and rice although we had to pay for parking because there was none around fortunately aivy bought some pocky covered with chocolate almond & strawberry cream for me until we got back to the car and went to get pedicures near our apartment.
-pedicure- felt good, my feet are soft, my toenails are smooth. i think the lady massaging my legs with lotion tried to look at my nuts. Yikes!
Joey's Embarrassing Moments: (Leaving an Akbayan cabinet meeting at the modules while the African American Commencement Committee is next door)
Joey: "Don't even trip Ted, I'm black...from the waist down."
Ted: "Dude, do you know who's next door?"
Joey shocked.
note: Know what you're saying before you say it.
2nd Anniversary to JoshGumbi's blogspot (writing since August 1st, 2002)
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
note: Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle - MUST SEE!!!
It's been said that some movies are justified unless you watch while under the influence of a certain herb. The movie was hilarious. I can't wait for the dvd to come out. My favorite line:
Kumar: Come on, Dad...
Kumar's Dad: Daddy isn't coming on anything!
The empty, 254 seater, theater is surrounded with a roar of laughter.
I had no idea White Castle was a restaurant on the east coast. I don't really want to try it, but I would like a #2 at In 'N Out with a vanilla milkshake and well-done french fries. Well, not necessarily this instance, but the next movie I'll most likely see is Collateral with Jamie Foxx and Tom Cruise. FREE SCREENING.
This summer's movies haven't been this great in such a long time. Going back to the topic of smoking marijuana, I've never done it, but I've second-handed the hemp many times. Especially that one night in my Valley West apartment, the air was filled completely with a smell that I'll never forget. Just another reason why I don't want to put myself in the shoes of a drug entertainer. Shoot! I enjoy being an audience.
Movies that people say you should be 'high' while watching:
Dazed and Confused
Half-Baked
Dude, Where's my Car?
Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle
Mallrats, Clerks, Dogma, etc.
It's been said that some movies are justified unless you watch while under the influence of a certain herb. The movie was hilarious. I can't wait for the dvd to come out. My favorite line:
Kumar: Come on, Dad...
Kumar's Dad: Daddy isn't coming on anything!
The empty, 254 seater, theater is surrounded with a roar of laughter.
I had no idea White Castle was a restaurant on the east coast. I don't really want to try it, but I would like a #2 at In 'N Out with a vanilla milkshake and well-done french fries. Well, not necessarily this instance, but the next movie I'll most likely see is Collateral with Jamie Foxx and Tom Cruise. FREE SCREENING.
This summer's movies haven't been this great in such a long time. Going back to the topic of smoking marijuana, I've never done it, but I've second-handed the hemp many times. Especially that one night in my Valley West apartment, the air was filled completely with a smell that I'll never forget. Just another reason why I don't want to put myself in the shoes of a drug entertainer. Shoot! I enjoy being an audience.
Movies that people say you should be 'high' while watching:
Dazed and Confused
Half-Baked
Dude, Where's my Car?
Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle
Mallrats, Clerks, Dogma, etc.
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Looking at my times at the e-dub house, defining what a positive night would be between us, we find ourselves wrapped up in a memory that was once there, but will always be there. The presence of your touch has once again tingled with great delight. The smell I once inhaled is soothing my lungs with tenderness. Seeing the smile of your neverending glow has surrounded your presence more than ever. The emotions of understanding one another's thoughts is in our destiny. You are my future. Before I had let the feelings fade purposely because I didn't know what was willing to be kept. Now I know everything is worth the unconditional feeling we have, had, and will always have toward each other. Loving you is what I meant the first time spoken, love is why it hurts so much, love is why we care, love has true meaning in our lives.
-dedicated to my girlfriend, Aivy
Tonight was never expected to turn out the way it did. With the thought that a network cable was supposedly the high point of the night, the apetite between Aivy and I grew. We wanted some burritos, but we couldn't find parking. So, on we went to find a new place to feed our quench. Suddenly, Aivy brought up Hahn's Hibachi. I knew there was one on Polk Street, so I wanted to try and surprise her. Unfortunately, parking was once again destroying our motivation to have a successful evening. After 30-minutes of searching, we found a parking lot that only asked $10 until 2am. Finally, we found a Tapioca Express type of place that quenched our thirst needs. About a block down, we found a delicious Hunan & Mandarin restaurant. Yummy. We still have some if you want to try. Departing our dinner venue, we walked hand-in-hand up Polk Street to a few other stores.
The whole evening was amazingly special. After being together for so many months, we found the glow fade, but tonight, I knew that the glow had never ceased. I love Aivy, and she loves me. You never understand someone completely until you go through the struggles of the extremes - happiness, madness, sadness, and grief. I cherish every moment with you Babble. We may not say every single day, but we know, deep down inside, that we were made for one another. I'm getting all giddy just saying all this stuff. You make me giddy. The way you are is what I want. Nothing more, nothing less. But, if you can offer more, bring it out. (its been already brought'n)
note: The Last Samurai - slow plot, strong ending, powerful message.
-dedicated to my girlfriend, Aivy
Tonight was never expected to turn out the way it did. With the thought that a network cable was supposedly the high point of the night, the apetite between Aivy and I grew. We wanted some burritos, but we couldn't find parking. So, on we went to find a new place to feed our quench. Suddenly, Aivy brought up Hahn's Hibachi. I knew there was one on Polk Street, so I wanted to try and surprise her. Unfortunately, parking was once again destroying our motivation to have a successful evening. After 30-minutes of searching, we found a parking lot that only asked $10 until 2am. Finally, we found a Tapioca Express type of place that quenched our thirst needs. About a block down, we found a delicious Hunan & Mandarin restaurant. Yummy. We still have some if you want to try. Departing our dinner venue, we walked hand-in-hand up Polk Street to a few other stores.
The whole evening was amazingly special. After being together for so many months, we found the glow fade, but tonight, I knew that the glow had never ceased. I love Aivy, and she loves me. You never understand someone completely until you go through the struggles of the extremes - happiness, madness, sadness, and grief. I cherish every moment with you Babble. We may not say every single day, but we know, deep down inside, that we were made for one another. I'm getting all giddy just saying all this stuff. You make me giddy. The way you are is what I want. Nothing more, nothing less. But, if you can offer more, bring it out. (its been already brought'n)
note: The Last Samurai - slow plot, strong ending, powerful message.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
TODAY
at the moment: Watching Jem
feeling: Extremely tired, concerned
dinner: Chicken marinated in lemon/soy sauce and pepper
love: Not being sick, Babble, my friends, and ICE HOCKEY
drank: Pepsi, Sunkist, Tropicana OJ, Snapple apple, Ocean Spray Cranberry Juice
played: Socom 2 online (ranked 9xx,xxx - sheesh, I'm on my way) Codename: barrelman
delivies: 26
weather: sunny, yet windy turned to cloudy and yucky
dessert: Jell-O chocolate pudding
hugged: Babble, Baby Nick, Armando, Baby Gina
drugs: Sudafed
hate: Drama, bad drivers, wet socks, bills
Giants: Lost 3-2
sports info: Ricky Williams retired at 27 y/o
worked with: Gus & Tom
lunch: El Burrito Taqueria (corner of Sutter & Polk)
waiting for: Bedtime and more dvd's
not forward to: Waking up for work
currently reading: The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien
movies: Southpark and Mighty Ducks
wants: sleep...good night
As Wayne and Garth from Wayne's World say...
"I'M NOT WORTHY!!! I'M NOT WORTHY!!!" (while on knees bowing down with extended arms)
name that quote: "Eat penguin shit, you ass-spelunker."
note: -sigh-
at the moment: Watching Jem
feeling: Extremely tired, concerned
dinner: Chicken marinated in lemon/soy sauce and pepper
love: Not being sick, Babble, my friends, and ICE HOCKEY
drank: Pepsi, Sunkist, Tropicana OJ, Snapple apple, Ocean Spray Cranberry Juice
played: Socom 2 online (ranked 9xx,xxx - sheesh, I'm on my way) Codename: barrelman
delivies: 26
weather: sunny, yet windy turned to cloudy and yucky
dessert: Jell-O chocolate pudding
hugged: Babble, Baby Nick, Armando, Baby Gina
drugs: Sudafed
hate: Drama, bad drivers, wet socks, bills
Giants: Lost 3-2
sports info: Ricky Williams retired at 27 y/o
worked with: Gus & Tom
lunch: El Burrito Taqueria (corner of Sutter & Polk)
waiting for: Bedtime and more dvd's
not forward to: Waking up for work
currently reading: The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien
movies: Southpark and Mighty Ducks
wants: sleep...good night
As Wayne and Garth from Wayne's World say...
"I'M NOT WORTHY!!! I'M NOT WORTHY!!!" (while on knees bowing down with extended arms)
name that quote: "Eat penguin shit, you ass-spelunker."
note: -sigh-
Saturday, July 24, 2004
First and foremost, happy birthday and best wishes on his 21st birthday, Chris B. Sorry I couldn't be there this evening. I hope you didn't get too wasted. As for me, the evening went well. The DSL is finally up and running - Socom 2 revival day. I washed television and read a story that my friend, Yumi, linked to me. Here's the link. I read the whole story in one sitting. I'm not really sure how I feel about it. It is romantic, yet it defines love on a much stronger scale. -sigh & shrugs- I just don't know. Mina.
note: Confusion reeks the mind.
note: Confusion reeks the mind.
Monday, July 19, 2004
Last Thursday was the moment of Fatal Frame truth. I was able to beat the game in about 1o hours. I plan on re-playing the game again and again so I can see the concluding ending AND alternate ending. I also want to see Mayu dressed in leather and glasses. -drool- I'm going to try and go through the game in half the time now. It shouldn't take that long since I don't really need to beat any monsters. I've upgraded my camera to the fullest. I just need to find the additional lenses. Ok...enough of my video game nerdiness.
While walking home from work, I thought my life had become so isolated within my own confined space. I'm at an all-time low of socializing. The only thing I enjoy doing is getting home and playing video games or watching television. Will it ever change? There are the enjoyable times when Aivy and I are just sitting around the apartment lounging and relaxing. Honestly, I want to visit the homies in San Jose, it's just too far. I guess I've become a lazy person. -sigh-
Ulo- I trust you...seriously!
I saw Dodgeball with Edcay. The movie was hilarious. Edison commented about the "lesbian" part and the fact that the whole movie, we were curious about the couple of females sitting to the left of us. We wondered if they were lesbians...we were right. The next few movies that I plan on watching, with whoever wants to go, are Bourne Supremacy, I Robot, Resident Evil: Apocalypse (September), and The Village. Gosh! I love Summer movies. It's weird how the person who was my friend when I was 10 is my closest friend when I'm 25. I look forward to moving in with Edison, Aivy, and possibly Charles. Oh damn! Video Games galore.
SBC DSL on July 27th, 2004! Woohoo! Socom 2 Online & NHL2004 Online. Barrelman's coming back!
note: I'm the middleman - my ears are always open to listen.
While walking home from work, I thought my life had become so isolated within my own confined space. I'm at an all-time low of socializing. The only thing I enjoy doing is getting home and playing video games or watching television. Will it ever change? There are the enjoyable times when Aivy and I are just sitting around the apartment lounging and relaxing. Honestly, I want to visit the homies in San Jose, it's just too far. I guess I've become a lazy person. -sigh-
Ulo- I trust you...seriously!
I saw Dodgeball with Edcay. The movie was hilarious. Edison commented about the "lesbian" part and the fact that the whole movie, we were curious about the couple of females sitting to the left of us. We wondered if they were lesbians...we were right. The next few movies that I plan on watching, with whoever wants to go, are Bourne Supremacy, I Robot, Resident Evil: Apocalypse (September), and The Village. Gosh! I love Summer movies. It's weird how the person who was my friend when I was 10 is my closest friend when I'm 25. I look forward to moving in with Edison, Aivy, and possibly Charles. Oh damn! Video Games galore.
SBC DSL on July 27th, 2004! Woohoo! Socom 2 Online & NHL2004 Online. Barrelman's coming back!
note: I'm the middleman - my ears are always open to listen.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Tonight, I sit in my apartment wondering where my life is leading. I honestly tried to apply for this one job that I found on craigslist, unfortunately, I couldn't find my resume and cover letter. This totally sucks.
I'm scanning through my mp3's on the disks. I finished all my chocolate fudge stuff. I'm attempting to clean up for the past couple of days, but I keep getting lazy. I really wanted to watch Dodgeball at the Coronet, here in San Francisco, but the stupid phone was all distorted from dust malfunctions and the phoneguy had to come in. The furniture all had to be moved because Mr. Leroy, the SBC Guy, had to get to the phone jacks. Although, he did install new phone jacks, costing $55 to my next phonebill. Goodness. I could have done it myself. Blah.
I watch Will & Grace and be bored. If I didn't have work tomorrow, I would have went to Aris and Albert's house party. -sigh- I want to die. My life is at a halt.
note: Don't graduate.
2. Gumbi
3. Don Hipol
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Ability to never quit
2. Patience
3. Gracefulness
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Boring
2. Slow thinker
3. Bad with vocabulary
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. Pilipino identity
2. Females
3. Synonyms
THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. Drivers that don't signal
2. Drivers that speed in the residential districts
3. Dust
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Isolation
2. Zombies
3. Nightmares
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Wallet
2. House keys
3. Cell phone
THREE people or sets of PEOPLE YOU SPEND/TALK THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. Aivy
2. Edison
3. Akbayan people
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. Make sense
2. Lead
3. Fly
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Ice hockey
2. Video games
3. Smile
THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. DSL
2. SJ Sharks season tickets
3. an IT job
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Safeway IT specialist
2. Technical support @ Downtown SF business
3. Videogame tester
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. Maui
2. Canada
3. San Diego
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Live
2. Love
3. Wonder
THREE THINGS YOU ARE GOING TO DO TONIGHT:
1. Play NHL2004 Dynasty mode
2. Chat on AIM
3. Watch the Simpsons
Thanks Kathleen, you gave me something to do before I go to bed.
I'm scanning through my mp3's on the disks. I finished all my chocolate fudge stuff. I'm attempting to clean up for the past couple of days, but I keep getting lazy. I really wanted to watch Dodgeball at the Coronet, here in San Francisco, but the stupid phone was all distorted from dust malfunctions and the phoneguy had to come in. The furniture all had to be moved because Mr. Leroy, the SBC Guy, had to get to the phone jacks. Although, he did install new phone jacks, costing $55 to my next phonebill. Goodness. I could have done it myself. Blah.
I watch Will & Grace and be bored. If I didn't have work tomorrow, I would have went to Aris and Albert's house party. -sigh- I want to die. My life is at a halt.
note: Don't graduate.
Three Things
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Joey
2. Gumbi
3. Don Hipol
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Ability to never quit
2. Patience
3. Gracefulness
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Boring
2. Slow thinker
3. Bad with vocabulary
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. Pilipino identity
2. Females
3. Synonyms
THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. Drivers that don't signal
2. Drivers that speed in the residential districts
3. Dust
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Isolation
2. Zombies
3. Nightmares
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Wallet
2. House keys
3. Cell phone
THREE people or sets of PEOPLE YOU SPEND/TALK THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. Aivy
2. Edison
3. Akbayan people
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. Make sense
2. Lead
3. Fly
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Ice hockey
2. Video games
3. Smile
THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. DSL
2. SJ Sharks season tickets
3. an IT job
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Safeway IT specialist
2. Technical support @ Downtown SF business
3. Videogame tester
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. Maui
2. Canada
3. San Diego
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Live
2. Love
3. Wonder
THREE THINGS YOU ARE GOING TO DO TONIGHT:
1. Play NHL2004 Dynasty mode
2. Chat on AIM
3. Watch the Simpsons
Thanks Kathleen, you gave me something to do before I go to bed.
Monday, July 12, 2004
I would like to thank everyone who attended my birthday surprise at the Hoo!
Edison...finally you've managed to spend a birthday with me. text: happy birthday JO ey!
Aivy...thank you for keeping my birthday in check.
Charles...interesting how small this world really is, but anyway, thanks for coming.
Kathleen & Chris...knowing that you guys made it with smiles on your faces puts a smile on mine. text: Happy Bday, Joey! -love, Kathleen n Chris
Ted...you were the only that RSVP'd from the very beginning, you the man, thanks.
Paulo...when I first found out you told you couldn't make it, I was saddened. As the event came closer, you somehow changed your mind and spend the evening with me. Thanks.
Wingmen...my friendship for you guys will never seize, unless the wingmen disban. that's not likely.
Tawny...having you at my birthday puts a smile on my face. Good Morning Sunshine.
Ladies of 101...with a little variety, you helped the ratio between guys to girls get better. but hey, we're all friends. thanks for taking the time to make it to the Hoo!
Mark...Dark Mark, thanks...for not getting to messed up. It's my birthday, remember.
other texts...
Ken: happy b-day joey before it hits 12, hahaha, sorry i can't make it (it's ok, I saw you a couple days after)
Flowerboy: Happy birthday bro Call me when your awake.
Kris: Happy bday! have a good one.
RJ: dude...happy bday
Reyna: Happy birthday bro, love you lots. -reyna
Gina: HaPpY BiRtHdAy!!!!! (case sensitive my dear)
Yumi: hehehe if only...happy birthday
Adan: happy birthday gumbi
note: Thanks and congratulations to all my fellow Cancer babies.
Edison...finally you've managed to spend a birthday with me. text: happy birthday JO ey!
Aivy...thank you for keeping my birthday in check.
Charles...interesting how small this world really is, but anyway, thanks for coming.
Kathleen & Chris...knowing that you guys made it with smiles on your faces puts a smile on mine. text: Happy Bday, Joey! -love, Kathleen n Chris
Ted...you were the only that RSVP'd from the very beginning, you the man, thanks.
Paulo...when I first found out you told you couldn't make it, I was saddened. As the event came closer, you somehow changed your mind and spend the evening with me. Thanks.
Wingmen...my friendship for you guys will never seize, unless the wingmen disban. that's not likely.
Tawny...having you at my birthday puts a smile on my face. Good Morning Sunshine.
Ladies of 101...with a little variety, you helped the ratio between guys to girls get better. but hey, we're all friends. thanks for taking the time to make it to the Hoo!
Mark...Dark Mark, thanks...for not getting to messed up. It's my birthday, remember.
other texts...
Ken: happy b-day joey before it hits 12, hahaha, sorry i can't make it (it's ok, I saw you a couple days after)
Flowerboy: Happy birthday bro Call me when your awake.
Kris: Happy bday! have a good one.
RJ: dude...happy bday
Reyna: Happy birthday bro, love you lots. -reyna
Gina: HaPpY BiRtHdAy!!!!! (case sensitive my dear)
Yumi: hehehe if only...happy birthday
Adan: happy birthday gumbi
note: Thanks and congratulations to all my fellow Cancer babies.
Monday, July 05, 2004
Chapter 12 - An Era Less Forgotten
i. SnowJams2003
ii. Spring Semester 2003
iii. Tapioca Express Tuesday/Thursdays
iv. PCN2003 "The Ninang"
v. Pil-Grad Commencement
I finally got Edcay to come with us to the snow, moreover, anywhere. It was freshmen year when Edcay went on an Akbayan outing. And look now, nearly five years later, he's in the driver's seat. I was excited to go up to the snow mainly because it might be the last time going with Akbayan, or its because I was with someone to share the snowy hills with. Inside Edcay's vehicle was Aivy and I with our snowboards stretched across the backseat and trunk. When we finally got to our destination, the snow was not that bad. We didn't need chains for the ride up, but the snow looked beautiful. When we arrived that late Friday, some of the folks were already comfortable in the cabin. The group of snowbayans were comfortable in the cabin that we had used once before. Later in the day, the rest of roomies arrived and we had a pretty late dinner. But, of course, we had no problems with the amount of noise made. The Saturday morning, I woke early assuming we would get to the slopes by 10 or 11, unusually, we were arriving at Northstar about 1am. I wasn't disappointed. We only paid for half day. The first few hours, I got to teach Aivy the basics of snowboarding. I failed as a teacher. She hurt herself and I went off to go on some of the other downhills. Sorry Babble. That Saturday night, some of us decided to play 10 Fingers. I found out some interesting skeletons about a handful of people. But, no worries, confidentiality is what I'm used to. Sunday was short, we all went out ways after eating Sushi on the way home. As for most visits to the snow, I've enjoyed this one in its own crazy way. For one thing, I got to play in the snow with Aivy, watch my friend freak a broom and walk the runway, and discover interesting stuff about people.
The month of January 2003 was the beginning of the end of my own era. I started my last couple of major classes with the motivation that I would get or attempt a gpa of 4.0. The list of classes that I took were Stats 115, Tech 20, Tech 162, Tech 168, and Tech 169. Fortunately, I was able to finish the Industrial Technology, ECT, Program without taking all those extra courses that they've implemented. Beside that, I had found my rightful educational plan of action. I was ready to become a San Jose State University alumni, with a Bachelor of Science Degree in the previously named course. Although, I do not believe that my focus is based on the Engineering name. If we were part of the Engineering, why doesn't the end of my major end with Engineering. Unless, the name of my major is Industrial Technology Engineering, but then, in the pamphlet for incoming Frosh, there's a list of all types of Engineering, except IT. The last time I saw, IT was a branch off of one of the original Engineering categories, like Electrical. I find myself in a hopeless future, wondering if my current job is where I'll be for the next fifty years. But with much determination, I will and shall become better. One should not stop where one has finished, but succeed in the goals that come from accomplishing a previous dream. When I finished my last semester, my education had become a priority in my life. And for once, I was proud to say what my gpa was...a 3.0. From my Fall 1997 semester, I thought that achieving anywhere near an honors grade point average was impossible, especially when there are females around. In high school, the only female influences in my choice of education were the teachers, coaches, and administration; all which were not worth a second look at. My first few classes were general education classes that accounted for my new class settings involving the female gender. This new style of education lowered my grade point average significantly. You can also say that college wasn't as easy, nor was it harder than expected. My final semester determined my growth of adulthood and responsiblity.
That semester was the most relaxing because I already knew it would be the last. I wasn't going to accept a failing grade in any of my classes. I succeeded in a B+ in 20, A- in 168, C+ in 115, B- in 162, and B in 169.
Some of the other events that had happened that semester was the coming together of the Tapioca Express people, mainly Raina, Kat, Gwen, and myself, among others that could be named, but I shall not. You know who you are. There is a list that we made together, along with a few others, maybe this may spark a memory..."You Go To S.J.S.U. if..." We made a list of 47 possibilities. I'm pretty sure any one of us can come up with a few. On Tuesday and/or Thursdays, I would exit my AutoCad class and find outside in front of the Student Union, a select, but certain few that would always be interested in going to Tapioca Express. My drink of choice was and will always be Mocha Snowbubble with Brown Balls. I found an interest in taking a walk to the nearby liquid vendor because there was a wanting to be. A need to be in a temporary longing that had a particular yet shallow goal - to get to the destination and buy a drink...with BROWN BALLS.
Writing the script took many stages. During the summer, I was manually writing line-by-line each scene that went with the plot. Although some of the scenes were deleted, I was able to write up a decent script for this year's Pilipino Cultural Night...ahem...Philippine Cultural Showcase. I encouraged the change of the name, but then I found out the significance that changing the name isn't the answer. The storyline had become into effect when having dinner with some friends when we were mentioning different types of stories that we can use. And then, boom, The Ninang idea gave birth, almost one and a half to two years before it was showed on stage. The only disappointment was the fact that my story was severely edited by the coordinators. I've been writing scripts since 1998. I don't think I'm the best script-writer, but I do know that my imagination hasn't been torn from its place. I own a notebook with dozens of short stories that only a few have read. These stories were made when Akbayan decided to do skits for PCN, instead of a main story. The skits were successful, unfortunately, none of my skits were used. Were they too profound, were they too confusing?
In The Ninang, I opened up all my emotions because this PCN would be my last, well, at least performance-wise. After this show, I will always be back to support this organization. From the very start, I considered Akbayan some type of family figure. There's no mother or father, but siblings, brothers and sisters that have always been there for me in amazing and astonishing ways. I will never forget any of the cabinets that I've participated in, or any of the people I've met from the organization itself. According to this semester, I was able to meet particular individuals that I was able to get to know even more. Can you guess who these people are? One individual was my Chacha partner, Alexis, and seems to be a very good friend. During practices, we would make sure we got the moves down. Obviously, she was like the assistant teacher to Aldrich. She was a fun dance partner and she was always willing to put up with my grief. You're the bestest! I guess Alexis couldn't get enough of me, so she had me as her Tango partner. That's for you Alexis, since you keep asking me why I don't write about ya'll.
I finally achieved Prince for Singkil. I attempted to make my own sword and shield for the dance. Unfortunately, the significance of the shield and sword had nothing to do with the dance. They were too flamboyent. Nearly a week before the show, I was working on the shaping and sanding of the pieces. Some of the nights where I wasn't at practice, I was stressing on getting my pieces finished. I was scared a few nights because the tools weren't responding with what I wanted. I spend so much time on the sword and shield, I never learned the whole routine. The first night was better than the second night because Kat and I ran into each other during the second show. I'm not really sure if people noticed. Teaching the fangirls was the beginning of my feminine experiences of gracefulness. In past PCN's, some of my friends told me that their parents thought I was gay. I'm a hetero, but I like to dance with grace and like liquid.
Everyone in the show, the veterans, the freshmen, the newby's, and the kids that just like to hang around, they all made that night special. Thank you Akbayan PCN'ers of 2003. Oh! And sorry for messing up during my solo.
Pil-Grad Commencement was a success, but not entirely what I expected. It was my last big job to do as an Akbayan leader, and I feel I've screwed it all up. Yeah, the event was another memory in the Akbayan yearbook. I was expecting to gather a group of twenty graduates and have a big Pilipino Graduation. Instead, I put on an intimate family type of get together. My fellow graduates all helped me out with putting the event come together. Sacha, Kat, Mike, and RJ all helped in their own ways. Sometimes I wish there were more participants, but I must accept what was given to me. I admit that I was a bit lazy, but mainly because PCS was my main priority during the semester. I didn't multitask. In short, Pil-Grad was great!
College was a great experience. The many friends that I've met kept me motivated to keep on moving forward with my goals. From my friends from the very beginning to the very end of the ordeal, I made what I could with my life possible. Remembering those who dropped in and then out of my life will never be forgotten. Each individual has played a very significant role in my life. Along with the movies and shows that had entered my life, they all mean something. There isn't a friendship that I took for granted. Some of the major friendships that I've considered greatly in my life are Edison, Leighton, Ted, Paulo, Alexis, Tawny, Liza, Tricia, and Mike.
For the reader's, I don't expect any of what I write to inspire you, or even motivate you, but I want to make my life known. The fact that I've managed to get through a stage in my life that some think is pointless at times. We all change our majors from time to time. We all stress over the frustrating. My life was how it was, and now I must take what I've learned, store the memories, and make room for what is to be determined by life.
note: I'm still working on these chapters. They aren't concrete. More to come.
ii. Spring Semester 2003
iii. Tapioca Express Tuesday/Thursdays
iv. PCN2003 "The Ninang"
v. Pil-Grad Commencement
I finally got Edcay to come with us to the snow, moreover, anywhere. It was freshmen year when Edcay went on an Akbayan outing. And look now, nearly five years later, he's in the driver's seat. I was excited to go up to the snow mainly because it might be the last time going with Akbayan, or its because I was with someone to share the snowy hills with. Inside Edcay's vehicle was Aivy and I with our snowboards stretched across the backseat and trunk. When we finally got to our destination, the snow was not that bad. We didn't need chains for the ride up, but the snow looked beautiful. When we arrived that late Friday, some of the folks were already comfortable in the cabin. The group of snowbayans were comfortable in the cabin that we had used once before. Later in the day, the rest of roomies arrived and we had a pretty late dinner. But, of course, we had no problems with the amount of noise made. The Saturday morning, I woke early assuming we would get to the slopes by 10 or 11, unusually, we were arriving at Northstar about 1am. I wasn't disappointed. We only paid for half day. The first few hours, I got to teach Aivy the basics of snowboarding. I failed as a teacher. She hurt herself and I went off to go on some of the other downhills. Sorry Babble. That Saturday night, some of us decided to play 10 Fingers. I found out some interesting skeletons about a handful of people. But, no worries, confidentiality is what I'm used to. Sunday was short, we all went out ways after eating Sushi on the way home. As for most visits to the snow, I've enjoyed this one in its own crazy way. For one thing, I got to play in the snow with Aivy, watch my friend freak a broom and walk the runway, and discover interesting stuff about people.
The month of January 2003 was the beginning of the end of my own era. I started my last couple of major classes with the motivation that I would get or attempt a gpa of 4.0. The list of classes that I took were Stats 115, Tech 20, Tech 162, Tech 168, and Tech 169. Fortunately, I was able to finish the Industrial Technology, ECT, Program without taking all those extra courses that they've implemented. Beside that, I had found my rightful educational plan of action. I was ready to become a San Jose State University alumni, with a Bachelor of Science Degree in the previously named course. Although, I do not believe that my focus is based on the Engineering name. If we were part of the Engineering, why doesn't the end of my major end with Engineering. Unless, the name of my major is Industrial Technology Engineering, but then, in the pamphlet for incoming Frosh, there's a list of all types of Engineering, except IT. The last time I saw, IT was a branch off of one of the original Engineering categories, like Electrical. I find myself in a hopeless future, wondering if my current job is where I'll be for the next fifty years. But with much determination, I will and shall become better. One should not stop where one has finished, but succeed in the goals that come from accomplishing a previous dream. When I finished my last semester, my education had become a priority in my life. And for once, I was proud to say what my gpa was...a 3.0. From my Fall 1997 semester, I thought that achieving anywhere near an honors grade point average was impossible, especially when there are females around. In high school, the only female influences in my choice of education were the teachers, coaches, and administration; all which were not worth a second look at. My first few classes were general education classes that accounted for my new class settings involving the female gender. This new style of education lowered my grade point average significantly. You can also say that college wasn't as easy, nor was it harder than expected. My final semester determined my growth of adulthood and responsiblity.
That semester was the most relaxing because I already knew it would be the last. I wasn't going to accept a failing grade in any of my classes. I succeeded in a B+ in 20, A- in 168, C+ in 115, B- in 162, and B in 169.
Some of the other events that had happened that semester was the coming together of the Tapioca Express people, mainly Raina, Kat, Gwen, and myself, among others that could be named, but I shall not. You know who you are. There is a list that we made together, along with a few others, maybe this may spark a memory..."You Go To S.J.S.U. if..." We made a list of 47 possibilities. I'm pretty sure any one of us can come up with a few. On Tuesday and/or Thursdays, I would exit my AutoCad class and find outside in front of the Student Union, a select, but certain few that would always be interested in going to Tapioca Express. My drink of choice was and will always be Mocha Snowbubble with Brown Balls. I found an interest in taking a walk to the nearby liquid vendor because there was a wanting to be. A need to be in a temporary longing that had a particular yet shallow goal - to get to the destination and buy a drink...with BROWN BALLS.
Writing the script took many stages. During the summer, I was manually writing line-by-line each scene that went with the plot. Although some of the scenes were deleted, I was able to write up a decent script for this year's Pilipino Cultural Night...ahem...Philippine Cultural Showcase. I encouraged the change of the name, but then I found out the significance that changing the name isn't the answer. The storyline had become into effect when having dinner with some friends when we were mentioning different types of stories that we can use. And then, boom, The Ninang idea gave birth, almost one and a half to two years before it was showed on stage. The only disappointment was the fact that my story was severely edited by the coordinators. I've been writing scripts since 1998. I don't think I'm the best script-writer, but I do know that my imagination hasn't been torn from its place. I own a notebook with dozens of short stories that only a few have read. These stories were made when Akbayan decided to do skits for PCN, instead of a main story. The skits were successful, unfortunately, none of my skits were used. Were they too profound, were they too confusing?
In The Ninang, I opened up all my emotions because this PCN would be my last, well, at least performance-wise. After this show, I will always be back to support this organization. From the very start, I considered Akbayan some type of family figure. There's no mother or father, but siblings, brothers and sisters that have always been there for me in amazing and astonishing ways. I will never forget any of the cabinets that I've participated in, or any of the people I've met from the organization itself. According to this semester, I was able to meet particular individuals that I was able to get to know even more. Can you guess who these people are? One individual was my Chacha partner, Alexis, and seems to be a very good friend. During practices, we would make sure we got the moves down. Obviously, she was like the assistant teacher to Aldrich. She was a fun dance partner and she was always willing to put up with my grief. You're the bestest! I guess Alexis couldn't get enough of me, so she had me as her Tango partner. That's for you Alexis, since you keep asking me why I don't write about ya'll.
I finally achieved Prince for Singkil. I attempted to make my own sword and shield for the dance. Unfortunately, the significance of the shield and sword had nothing to do with the dance. They were too flamboyent. Nearly a week before the show, I was working on the shaping and sanding of the pieces. Some of the nights where I wasn't at practice, I was stressing on getting my pieces finished. I was scared a few nights because the tools weren't responding with what I wanted. I spend so much time on the sword and shield, I never learned the whole routine. The first night was better than the second night because Kat and I ran into each other during the second show. I'm not really sure if people noticed. Teaching the fangirls was the beginning of my feminine experiences of gracefulness. In past PCN's, some of my friends told me that their parents thought I was gay. I'm a hetero, but I like to dance with grace and like liquid.
Everyone in the show, the veterans, the freshmen, the newby's, and the kids that just like to hang around, they all made that night special. Thank you Akbayan PCN'ers of 2003. Oh! And sorry for messing up during my solo.
Pil-Grad Commencement was a success, but not entirely what I expected. It was my last big job to do as an Akbayan leader, and I feel I've screwed it all up. Yeah, the event was another memory in the Akbayan yearbook. I was expecting to gather a group of twenty graduates and have a big Pilipino Graduation. Instead, I put on an intimate family type of get together. My fellow graduates all helped me out with putting the event come together. Sacha, Kat, Mike, and RJ all helped in their own ways. Sometimes I wish there were more participants, but I must accept what was given to me. I admit that I was a bit lazy, but mainly because PCS was my main priority during the semester. I didn't multitask. In short, Pil-Grad was great!
College was a great experience. The many friends that I've met kept me motivated to keep on moving forward with my goals. From my friends from the very beginning to the very end of the ordeal, I made what I could with my life possible. Remembering those who dropped in and then out of my life will never be forgotten. Each individual has played a very significant role in my life. Along with the movies and shows that had entered my life, they all mean something. There isn't a friendship that I took for granted. Some of the major friendships that I've considered greatly in my life are Edison, Leighton, Ted, Paulo, Alexis, Tawny, Liza, Tricia, and Mike.
For the reader's, I don't expect any of what I write to inspire you, or even motivate you, but I want to make my life known. The fact that I've managed to get through a stage in my life that some think is pointless at times. We all change our majors from time to time. We all stress over the frustrating. My life was how it was, and now I must take what I've learned, store the memories, and make room for what is to be determined by life.
note: I'm still working on these chapters. They aren't concrete. More to come.
Friday, June 11, 2004
...continuation from joshgumbi's xanga site
Today, my tension has risen to its very high and climatic point. I exploded with rage and anger. My temper had never been released from its cage. My veins rushed with blood running reverse from the normal flow of motion. While on my feet, my inner redness rushed to my brain exploding with rage toward the victim. I wasn't sure what I was saying, although I knew my feelings were being free. I'm sorry. Anger must be patient and emotion should be wholesome.
On the upside, I attended P.A.S.A.'s Pilipino Graduation (Pil-Grad). I helped out with what needed to be done. I was asked to sing the Philippine National Anthem which I was unable to do. The event had started late this evening mainly because Marco, Sylvia, and I attempted to run an errand that took a bit longer than expected. The worker that tried to help us was clueless. He knew what he was doing, yet he was slow at it. Stupid-head.
Am I turning my back on my own background? No! Akbayan is my family forever. Yet, they still do not ask for any assistance from me, their alumni. Unless they ask other alumni. Speaking of alumni...
So, from time to time, Aivy explains the issues of certain alumni leaving me in shock. The criticism and "concerns" toward any filipino organization has been made to evolve and adapt with incoming leaders. As an alumni and former student of SJSU, I've always welcomed anyone that was interested in the Akbayan spirit. Akbayan has had its low and high points in the past. When I started this organization/club, Akbayan was succeeding and achieving greatness. We had connections that I hadn't discovered until later years. Although, things began to change when 1990's alumni decided to dropout of the whole Akbayan scene. It wasn't the fact that they gave up after the cancellation of our own PCN '99, but they saw that the new generation of Akbayan members were changing. During PCN '00 rehearsals, assistance was needed to teach dances to some of the rookies of Akbayan. The connection between the two was unpleasant. To this day, friends still recall those days as uncomfortable and irrational. (Yes Ted, I'm talking about you) Anyway, in short, some alumni can be exclusive. I feel I've become an outsider with my own organization. I wanted to watch both shows this past year, but work had taken that away from me. And if anyone knew me, I'm very dedicated toward my priorities and things to do. I also cannot believe I missed Akbayan's Pil-Grad due to commitment toward other situations. I apologize to those that had graduated. And also, Congratulations!!!
next entry topic: Chapter 12: The Finale - am I really done?
what's in my...
PS2 = NHL2004 (videogame) Southpark or Matrix Revolutions (dvd)
wallet = one dollar bills
pocket = keys (left pocket) cell phone (right pocket)
GameCube = Super Monkeyball (soon)
Ulo = Ulo (duh!)
arms = Babble & Nick (the bear Marie gave Aivy for her b-day)
note: "I used to know how to dress, until I got into college."
Today, my tension has risen to its very high and climatic point. I exploded with rage and anger. My temper had never been released from its cage. My veins rushed with blood running reverse from the normal flow of motion. While on my feet, my inner redness rushed to my brain exploding with rage toward the victim. I wasn't sure what I was saying, although I knew my feelings were being free. I'm sorry. Anger must be patient and emotion should be wholesome.
On the upside, I attended P.A.S.A.'s Pilipino Graduation (Pil-Grad). I helped out with what needed to be done. I was asked to sing the Philippine National Anthem which I was unable to do. The event had started late this evening mainly because Marco, Sylvia, and I attempted to run an errand that took a bit longer than expected. The worker that tried to help us was clueless. He knew what he was doing, yet he was slow at it. Stupid-head.
Am I turning my back on my own background? No! Akbayan is my family forever. Yet, they still do not ask for any assistance from me, their alumni. Unless they ask other alumni. Speaking of alumni...
So, from time to time, Aivy explains the issues of certain alumni leaving me in shock. The criticism and "concerns" toward any filipino organization has been made to evolve and adapt with incoming leaders. As an alumni and former student of SJSU, I've always welcomed anyone that was interested in the Akbayan spirit. Akbayan has had its low and high points in the past. When I started this organization/club, Akbayan was succeeding and achieving greatness. We had connections that I hadn't discovered until later years. Although, things began to change when 1990's alumni decided to dropout of the whole Akbayan scene. It wasn't the fact that they gave up after the cancellation of our own PCN '99, but they saw that the new generation of Akbayan members were changing. During PCN '00 rehearsals, assistance was needed to teach dances to some of the rookies of Akbayan. The connection between the two was unpleasant. To this day, friends still recall those days as uncomfortable and irrational. (Yes Ted, I'm talking about you) Anyway, in short, some alumni can be exclusive. I feel I've become an outsider with my own organization. I wanted to watch both shows this past year, but work had taken that away from me. And if anyone knew me, I'm very dedicated toward my priorities and things to do. I also cannot believe I missed Akbayan's Pil-Grad due to commitment toward other situations. I apologize to those that had graduated. And also, Congratulations!!!
next entry topic: Chapter 12: The Finale - am I really done?
what's in my...
PS2 = NHL2004 (videogame) Southpark or Matrix Revolutions (dvd)
wallet = one dollar bills
pocket = keys (left pocket) cell phone (right pocket)
GameCube = Super Monkeyball (soon)
Ulo = Ulo (duh!)
arms = Babble & Nick (the bear Marie gave Aivy for her b-day)
note: "I used to know how to dress, until I got into college."
Monday, May 17, 2004
- Sharks are a game away from ending their successful season -
note: why does competition in something I feel greatly toward excite me as well as frustrate me?
I admit that I'm addicted to some things. I enjoy making people happy. I still believe in others happiness before my own. I can easily make myself happy. Otherwise, I'd be a pretty boring and dull person. With that point in mind, I may appear to be a laid back type, but I just need to be familiar with the situation in order to liven up my party.
Chapter 11: Almost done.
The summer of 2002 was a blast. I was working as many hours as I could. I was hanging out with the homies every now and then, or whenever we got the chance. By the end of the summer, I was getting ready for the year ahead of me. I was situating the papers to make Pil-Grad Commencement a campus club. With the information at hand, I got through the primary paper work. All that needed to be done was the Constitution. Bottomline, I took Akbayan's draft and tried to formulate a new draft for the purposes needed for Pil-Grad. Over and over I was told to edit the Constitution because some of the information was vague and misleading. I guess I thought that since I was well-known in Student Life, I was going to be able to breeze by. I thought completely wrong. I was faced by the wrong individuals to help me out. In short, I gave up. I never give up. I keep fighting for what should be done. I couldn't take it, I gave up.
I was back on Akbayan cabinet for the next two semesters. Will I be able to limit my assistance so that I can keep up with my studies? Actually, I was able to make my academic life a main priority. I was taking Technology classes and fulfilling my general education classes and business minor. The Fall 2002 semester was a great step toward what I really wanted to do with my future. The information and education I was given was well-documented. I wanted to learn. I finally found the true meaning of going and finishing school. I could actually sit in class and learn everything that my professors were teaching me. Maybe it was the fact that I knew I was finishing at the end of the year, I wanted to become a smarter person in the field I was in. Take what you learn, make yourself want it. If you don't want it, why are you there?
By Friendship Games, I promised myself that the trip will be memorable. I wrote once about my trips to and fro already. Let's talk about what happened during the games. I knew I should have done role call, but I didn't have time to make the practices during the week because I was studying. The Saturday morning went well. Everyone woke up on time, we all were ready to get our butts into the games. We step out of the hotel and its drizzling. I'm wearing my SJSU sweatshirt with my Akbayan shirt over it. I can only see it now, both Ulo and I with hoodies on and a video camera around our necks. We are bros. The rain seemed to drown out the inspiration of the games. Some schools were downright ready to get in the mud and splash around like duckies. I helped set up camp and walked around. I did the nomad type of stroll around the damp grass. As light appeared, so did the eyes of filipinos around the area. Spuf grew inside people's bodies. Friendship Games started off low, but the event ended smoothly and strong.
In short, a bunch of us went to Downtown Disney and enjoyed the LA environment, and the spirit of Anaheim's win over the Giants in Game 5. To tell you the truth, I enjoyed being with my friends in an unknown place. If only we can take trips like this more often, it would be so thrilling to see what would happen if we all went on a road trip. By the time we all got back, I made a decision that determined my love life completely. My first option was to go upstairs to my room and sleep. Earlier that day, I was invited to kickback and relax in Room 151 with some Pasa people. I came to the fork in the road, or the hallway. I was looking toward the lobby toward the elevators, while turning my head down that first floor hallway to Room 151. I stepped forward and found myself with a glass of green liquid in my hand. Aivy, Pasa's Treasurer, welcomed me to the room with guys and girls from the triforce, SJSU, SFSU, and CSUH. This was my treat for wanting my last Friendship Games to end with a bang. And now look, 19 months later, I'm in a loving relationship with an incredible woman.
A week later, Akbayan had an ice skating night. I was thrilled to be on the ice as usual. Although, during the week, I had an interesting conversation with a particular female. We chatted online and then I called her on the phone. I knew I would see her at the ice skating event. I was a bit nervous to see her away from Friendship Games. It took me awhile to go up to her and say hello to her. She looked great, she smelled great, and -sigh. Nearly five days later, we finally see each other again. The feeling was great.
The rest of the semester seemed a blur. I just remember seeing Aivy and eventually becoming her boyfriend. She was great then, and still is a great catch, even though she caught me.
note: why does competition in something I feel greatly toward excite me as well as frustrate me?
I admit that I'm addicted to some things. I enjoy making people happy. I still believe in others happiness before my own. I can easily make myself happy. Otherwise, I'd be a pretty boring and dull person. With that point in mind, I may appear to be a laid back type, but I just need to be familiar with the situation in order to liven up my party.
The summer of 2002 was a blast. I was working as many hours as I could. I was hanging out with the homies every now and then, or whenever we got the chance. By the end of the summer, I was getting ready for the year ahead of me. I was situating the papers to make Pil-Grad Commencement a campus club. With the information at hand, I got through the primary paper work. All that needed to be done was the Constitution. Bottomline, I took Akbayan's draft and tried to formulate a new draft for the purposes needed for Pil-Grad. Over and over I was told to edit the Constitution because some of the information was vague and misleading. I guess I thought that since I was well-known in Student Life, I was going to be able to breeze by. I thought completely wrong. I was faced by the wrong individuals to help me out. In short, I gave up. I never give up. I keep fighting for what should be done. I couldn't take it, I gave up.
I was back on Akbayan cabinet for the next two semesters. Will I be able to limit my assistance so that I can keep up with my studies? Actually, I was able to make my academic life a main priority. I was taking Technology classes and fulfilling my general education classes and business minor. The Fall 2002 semester was a great step toward what I really wanted to do with my future. The information and education I was given was well-documented. I wanted to learn. I finally found the true meaning of going and finishing school. I could actually sit in class and learn everything that my professors were teaching me. Maybe it was the fact that I knew I was finishing at the end of the year, I wanted to become a smarter person in the field I was in. Take what you learn, make yourself want it. If you don't want it, why are you there?
By Friendship Games, I promised myself that the trip will be memorable. I wrote once about my trips to and fro already. Let's talk about what happened during the games. I knew I should have done role call, but I didn't have time to make the practices during the week because I was studying. The Saturday morning went well. Everyone woke up on time, we all were ready to get our butts into the games. We step out of the hotel and its drizzling. I'm wearing my SJSU sweatshirt with my Akbayan shirt over it. I can only see it now, both Ulo and I with hoodies on and a video camera around our necks. We are bros. The rain seemed to drown out the inspiration of the games. Some schools were downright ready to get in the mud and splash around like duckies. I helped set up camp and walked around. I did the nomad type of stroll around the damp grass. As light appeared, so did the eyes of filipinos around the area. Spuf grew inside people's bodies. Friendship Games started off low, but the event ended smoothly and strong.
In short, a bunch of us went to Downtown Disney and enjoyed the LA environment, and the spirit of Anaheim's win over the Giants in Game 5. To tell you the truth, I enjoyed being with my friends in an unknown place. If only we can take trips like this more often, it would be so thrilling to see what would happen if we all went on a road trip. By the time we all got back, I made a decision that determined my love life completely. My first option was to go upstairs to my room and sleep. Earlier that day, I was invited to kickback and relax in Room 151 with some Pasa people. I came to the fork in the road, or the hallway. I was looking toward the lobby toward the elevators, while turning my head down that first floor hallway to Room 151. I stepped forward and found myself with a glass of green liquid in my hand. Aivy, Pasa's Treasurer, welcomed me to the room with guys and girls from the triforce, SJSU, SFSU, and CSUH. This was my treat for wanting my last Friendship Games to end with a bang. And now look, 19 months later, I'm in a loving relationship with an incredible woman.
A week later, Akbayan had an ice skating night. I was thrilled to be on the ice as usual. Although, during the week, I had an interesting conversation with a particular female. We chatted online and then I called her on the phone. I knew I would see her at the ice skating event. I was a bit nervous to see her away from Friendship Games. It took me awhile to go up to her and say hello to her. She looked great, she smelled great, and -sigh. Nearly five days later, we finally see each other again. The feeling was great.
The rest of the semester seemed a blur. I just remember seeing Aivy and eventually becoming her boyfriend. She was great then, and still is a great catch, even though she caught me.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
The semester I finally decided to stray away from the pcn stage and take on the backstage position that I once took back in Chapter 2. The only reason I did lighting only is because I was more involved with Pride of the Pacific Islands luau. It was my chance to meet a lot of different people at San Jose State. With no surprise, I met a lot more girls than guys. Well, of course I did. Hardly any guys wanted to dance, which was no problem for me at the time. The luau was somewhat stressing because we weren't allowed to miss any practices. If you missed more than two practices, you were automatically cut. I know its discipline, but I guess I just wasn't used to it. That was how I wanted Akbayan pcn practices to be. But, after four years, I just couldn't handle being mean and an authority figure as much as one would want. I just made things fun, but at the same time, I got things done. Remember that you should get things done first, and then once you got things down, have fun with it. I wasn't really stressed that semester because I already started to feel motivated with my classes. I had time management down to the minute.
Spring 2002 was academically noticable because it was the first time I was getting A's in my classes.
School was interesting that semester. I tried hard to stray away from Akbayan's existence. I wanted to live the life of an M.I.A. Unfortunately, there was a lot of time that I had where I wasn't in class. Even though work kept me occupied, I was still doing my job pretty quick to be able to kick back in front of the Union...and waste time with people. The semester went smoothly because I was taking my minor classes. I was in a bunch of my Business Management classes.
PCN 2002 - Aking Pilipina (a success) I was surprised that I limited myself with this pcn. In the beginning, Chariss asked for assistance with the dances she would be teaching. I wanted to help her, but my classes had become my first priority. Little did I know was that she had everything under control. See what happens when you put a female in charge of dances. Things get done. I can't believe I was reliable with dances in past years. In time, I've become someone to look to for help with dances. Like now.
The competition between Pride of the Pacific and Akbayan showed significantly. Practices with pride were strict. So strict that people doing pcn didn't show because of their commitment to the pride luau. It was said that if you miss two practices, you were out. Although, with akbayan-pcn, if you miss practices, there were no understudies. It was either you were in or you were in. The luau went somewhat smoothly. The stresses of this show was a bit less stressing, mainly because I wasn't one of the main people in charge of the luau. Crazy stuff, but hey, I was considered a luau virgin. I met a lot of hottie chicks, yet no one seemed to catch my eye...or no one had an eye for me. And if they did, sheesh, am I that intimidating? Now, that the luau had diminished, time for pcn to march right back into my life.
The show was scheduled, once again on the same date as Santa Clara's. As a matter of fact, this was the show that Jonas Estrada went to instead of ours. And you claim him as your PCN Co-coordinator. -sheesh- The show was on its way. I was so able to do the things I've always wanted to do. The ability to interview people and talk with the cast and make sure the show went on smoothly, instead of practicing dances, teaching steps, getting the preparations ready for the show. My role in this pcn was lighting. Two run-throughs before the show, I was able to work with my fellow lighting consultant. She was very friendly. We had strange conversations about theater production, sex, and food. She was a sexually deprived individual. By the time the show came around...BOOM...I had my trusty red-orange booklet giving cues. FADE OUT to 80, FADE IN to 50. blah blah blah blah.
The show was over. I predicted the show would be great...And it was. My vision two years after the infamous re-arising of pcn 2000 was finally here. It came faster than I thought. People were hugging, everyone seemed proud to be akbayan, to be part of this show, and most importantly, feeling that akbayan would last without me.
My brothers Pil-Grad was coming up. The class of '02 was a huge one. A class of nearly 25 came and dressed in their black robes. They were an inspiring group ready to put on their last good-byes. My brother was there, along with some roommates that made life interesting. It seemed as if they had so much behind them to make this event successful. This was my motivation, yet just not enough for my own.
Chapter 9: Limited Participation
Fall 2001 - Spring 2002 Ted's Reign!
My education became the first priority in my life. I was taking my second major at state, and I surpassed my four years of post high school education. This fall semester was the beginning of the end for Akbayan, the start of my new education, and the quality of great friendships.
I've been living at e.W.o for four years and become very comfortable with my surroundings. I didn't really have much to participate in the house except for watching television and playing ice hockey.
Friendship Games 2001 was dull. The transportation to and fro were the interesting parts of the trip. I drove a fifteen seater with the most random and diverse group. Some of the passengers decided to smoke weed while we were on highway 5. Oh well, I didn't smell it in the van when I returned it. On our way, we stopped in Casa de Fruta, off of 152. When we were about to leave, we discover that a wife cheated on her husband. The affair met out there at their location and the husband found them. We watched the drama turn into a violent blood bath. Just kidding. The husband swung a few punches at the guy, while the wife yelled at both of the men. The two males ended up on the ground. My passengers and I just laughed and video taped the whole incident. Hilarious! Remember that Paulo!
On the way home from the Promenade in Santa Monica, after we all finished eating at Hooter's, with the ugly waitress that overcharged our bill and discovering that Tera Patrick was there too, Mark's suburban broke down a few exits after we got on the freeway. The time was about 6 o'clock. All the cars with us, minus three, followed Mark to his cousin's house in Los Angeles. Finally, the caravan began their trip home at 10 o'clock in the evening. We arrived in San Jose about 4am, tired as a mutha!
Filipino Heritage Day happened the week before friendship games. I didn't participate, I just watched.
My winter formal date that year was whack. Enough about that, I had more fun when she left with Ted's ex. (covering mouth) haha. sorry Ted. Had to say it.
Chapter 8: Spring 2001
Another PCN semester. The strength of Akbayan has never hit this peak, according to my so-called reign. That semester, the participation level was unbelievable. We had our pcn open house. Even an hour before the meeting, I was making calls to people so that they'd show up. And guess what! We had a damn good outcome. I remember the interns doing their job. That year, the interns were our famous go-getters to make things happen. Aris, Mark, Marius, Irene, and Suzanne(kinda) made it all happen. People showed up interested in doing the show. That year, we pretty much lost the support from a majority of our alumni. The only help that I could gather up were Ann, Jun, and some of Jaymar. Ann helped with Dumadel, Uyauy, while Jun helped out with Uyauy, and Jaymar with Kappa Malong Malong. And yes, I can be wrong with the dances. I just have my own way of teaching dances. It may take a lot of dedication, but hey, it will be done. That year, we found another great dancer and contribution to Akbayan, Chariss. PCN was held at the Santa Clara Convention Center. The only negative part of that show were the programs. They were somewhat whack, but hey, I made the whole thing in one night.
The skits were great. I starred in one of the stories. I played the white-washed boyfriend that gets physically slapped in the face. It stung. This was the first show where I had drama with someone. I was truly sorry that the drama had to unveil itself, but hey, I trusted people with my confidence. Oh well! You never know who to trust with your words. Does anyone know where my pcn 2001 tape is?
This was the first semester where I was an IT major. I registered for all Computer Science classes, but dropped them all for Tech198, Tech 60, and some other one. During the semester, I saw a GE advisor. I completed all my lower GE classes. Yay! When I tried dropping one of the CS classes that I had, I forgot to insert a reason why I wanted to drop the class. So, in time, I was sent a letter to turn in the reason. The only problem was that I didn't need the class anymore. Later, I was given a call to go in and see an advisor. She practically scolded and lectured me about my classes. She questioned why I was a fourth year student and coming no where close to a degree. At that point, something just hit me. Education had become really important to me. Most students believe in taking classes and hoping to just pass the class. At that point, I turned into a "I won't settle for anything but an A" student. And guess what, my grades started to go up. When I was president and co-coordinator of pcn 2000, I received a gpa of 2.81, which was my highest at that point. Tell me, how does someone receive a high gpa when I'm really busy, and not close to getting anything done.
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