I've come to the conclusion that I'm a hardworker. I take challenges and tasks no matter how difficult the level. Especially at work where I feel the most pressure, my brain power exceeds it's capacity. How does someone know when they're working hard, otherwise, hardly working? There is no way to read someone else's struggle, so work don't worry about it.

I've been watching this movie My Big Love while I've been writing. According to the amount of writing, I've been paying too much attention to the movie. It involves an obese gentleman "Macky" (like myself + 1/2) who involves himself with a well-known lady. On their blind date, he embarrasses the both of them. He finds himself eating more, leaves his job, and begins to feel like there is no where else to go. Prior to the date, Aira, ...oh geez. Fast forward, Macky loses the pounds and has a fit body. Aira goes away to Japan, and Macky goes away somewhere else. So, just when you think he's with Aira in the second half, he's with Nina, the girl who didn't like the fat him. That's it for now because the move has 15 more minutes.

OMG, he's even living with Nina. Sorry, SPOILERS!!!!

My question, why isn't he with Aira? We shall see.

Sure, let's post. Since I'm here, let's update. I've been with
.com for over 2 years now and I'm no where close to my full potential. Am I close to it? Probably not because there's so much more to learn. From product to experience to marketing to execution. We all have our goals, we all have our aspirations, we must just put our foot forward no matter how we feel, how scared, how fearful, how the emotions stir inside our boiling bodies. You need to start somewhere, and that some place is right in front of you, about 12-18 inches in front of your nose. Dive in, leap in, crawl in...as long as you get in.

What else?

For those that may not know, I was in a relationship for 6 years...24 months of bliss, but 48 months of heart ache, stress, hate, yelling, and mostly regret. I never wanted this feeling to end, but was too naive to see that what I wanted and what she wanted were too different. Especially with her, my special favorite someone.  She hearts me as much as I heart her.  There's so much growth, so much time, but I won't take any of it for granted. It is all I want.

What else?

For those that may not know, I have three new roommates where each of us is completely different in our own way. We have:

Roommate 1: least experience living away from the parents, but has amazing responsibility in the household. He seems to enjoy sitting around the house as much as I do, but when the chance to step outside the door, off he goes taking the world in one hand and using the other to drive drive drive.

Roommate 2: mucho experience living away from home. Kind of has the same mentality with living with family...just not possible, not at my age, now that we've done it for so many years. He enjoys cooking just as much as watching people cook. He's always open for new things; hence, video games. He never accepts where he is at because he believes there's always better...and there is.

Roommate 3: this guy owned his own home one point in his life. With all the furnishings of a house, he gives the ability to add something different, something more than just a new face. A blessing if you come to think of it as making a decision off a simple conversation. Thinks twice before jumping into things, but seems to take risks.

Roommate 4: enjoys seeing people run in and out the door, but doesn't seem to mind opening and closing the door for them. Watches over the village with a glass of juice in one hand and a chicken wing in the other. Not much of a night life, but day life seems pretty outgoing.

These are my four roommates, including me. Well, Socom 4 is coming out on Playstation 3, which means so much to some people. I just hate how I have enthusiasm for a single longer than most people. I guess.

I hate overdrafts. I would blame myself for my lack of balance when saving a purchasing, but come on. I check my accounts online everyday, multiple times. There was a tool a couple of weeks ago that marked pending purchases, so then I was sure that I wasn't going to be flagged with overdraft charges. But guess what, they never put them down. What the hell. This pisses me off. I mean, I'm big on saving, but how could I save if I'm not well-informed with my account. I guess this is where we as consumers get ripped off by banks.

Lesson to be learned is to just keep track again. It is such a hassle, especially when it is an overdraft for less than two dollars. I might as well just cash my checks and save the money myself. I don't get any special treatment from my bank(s), but I'm upset and high-tempered right now. This is stupid! Whatever. It happens. Maybe it's time to go to a real bank.