After a week in Maryland, I am home for two days. Now, I am packing for another Alaska trip for a second straight week on the road. I'm a little tired, but the experience is needed. With a tight staff, the workload is starting to kick me in the butt. But my butt power will keep me paced with the work.

8/25
Yesterday worked like a pseudo-date. These outings are named adventures for the two of us. I've always enjoyed spending time with her. Even when the labels we held were strictly friendship, wait! We hold no labels. As we grow up, the crowning of ranking between two people starts to fade and tends to assume the situation -just as long as both parties understand the rules of engagement. Why does it work this way? Knowing someone is special to you doesn't involve labels, just the basic faith that they are there for you. People we care about should not involve extra to show face to other people. I do feel a bit hypocritical. I subconsciously want others to know my status. But behind the curtains, happiness is what matters.

8/19
The San Jose Logitech DDD Division Championship game was won by the newly entered Icemen team. Let's flashback to the previous season, where the Icemen were playing in the DDDD division. The playoffs had been a bit harder to cope with than this year. Some of the teams we have played for multiple seasons, but since we had one the DDDD Division Championship, we, as team, were getting better and better. The more we played, the teamwork started to improve exponentially; at the same time, the individual effort was still there. The greatest asset would definitely go to our goalie. He's a wall with tiny cracks that pucks don't usually fit. We played against the Fighting Amish and won 6-2. Although, I've played almost 6 seasons with this team, this is my third championship win. While I'm on roster, the team had won 3 out of 4 championships. We won in the E, DDDD, and DDD divisions. We lost in the E division a couple years back while I was still in college. Go Icemen!

Summer 2007 Games Played: 13; 3 goals; 5 assists; 8 points
Summer 2007 Playoffs Games Played: 4; 1 goal; 2 assists; 3 points

Winter 2006 Games Played: 15; 3 goals; 1 assist; 4 points
Winter 2006 Playoffs Games Played: 2; 1 goal; 0 assists; 1 point

...a bit emotional tonight. although filled with laughs before you left, i've become swarmed with a sudden sense of misery. i cannot tell why. i just want to hide under and rock, better yet, get squished by the rock. stupid rock!

It's a hunch, but I'm willing to try it. This morning and the past few weeks has been aches and pains, especially in my left arm. When I first browsed the internet, I could barely find any information on tingly fingers or aching arms. Finally, letting my fingers do the talking, google finally gave me a result worth reading-more like a forum thread. Here's what the poster said:
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01-20-03, 08:56 PM

Numb & tingly fingers! The little finger and ring finger of my left-hand has been constantly semi-numb and tingly for two or three weeks. I was beginning to think I might have a serious bloodflow problem...maybe even a heart problem. I searched on the web for a cause of my problem and all I could really find on the subject had to do with carpal tunnel syndrome, which I was sure was not my problem. I was about ready to visit my doctor because I was getting worried and it even affected me getting to sleep at night. Well, I figured out what my probem was when my wife noticed I had a small purplish bruise on my left elbow. (How many people look at their own elbows!) I have a bad habit of propping my left elbow on my desk and leaning my chin on my left hand for support when I browse around on the PC, which is often... And I have, over time, damaged or pinched a nerve that affects the last two fingers of my left hand! This is obviously the same nerve area that makes your fingers feel all tingly for a few minutes when you bump your elbow just right, which many people call the "funny bone"! Over the last few days I have made it a point not to prop my elbow on the desk and my fingers are finally feeling almost normal again...and the bruise is all but gone too. I just wanted to share this story with others that may have experienced a similar problem. We are creatures of habit...and sometimes our habits are not good ones! Kooter

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The thread went on and on about these particular symptoms. The irony was me reading the post with my left arm on the desk and my chin in my left hand. Immediately, I sat up and accepted the fact that a common body stance is what's possibly causing these weird feelings. Thanks Kooter. There was another post about a month or two ago that said it was a lot more serious than what's explained above. But, I plan to try to keep my elbows off my desk to see if the tingly feelings go away.

Later in the thread, it explains the ulnar nerve that could tighten on the inside of the back of the elbow. This nerve moves both ways; to the fingertips and up to the neck. Although my neck feels fine, I do hope it continues to act normally.



As for the cranium, I've been really cranky lately. I complain a whole lot more, as if I'm angry and something. Possibly the outcome of the entry above is causing my brain to act carelessly. My outbursts may collide with the happinesses leading to hurting people. So, I say this, stay away from me at all costs. I may be a calm and self-controlled person, but I could snap and turn the world upside down. Good-natured people build up their temper and let it out in extreme anger. Beware! I am violent, if I have a reason to be. I've tried to let my feelings out the moment I feel them, but no one respects the angry side and just makes fun of it. It's not fair sometimes. Maybe I should just be mean and angry all the time. Even if I start swearing, people will probably be shocked, then stay away from me. It's a daring life. What do I do?

I don't feel respected. Did I earn it? Probably not.

Hello August, how are you? So far, three days have passed and I'm still living with regularity, or as I say it 're-gah-lur', nothing else comes clearer than my relationship with Cas. She is always there for me when I need her. Everything else will remain in my head or for her ears and her ears only.

My hands have been feeling like they're on fire and my fingertips are tingly and sometimes numb. This happens more often now that I fear for something worse. These inflammations occur only in my ligaments, usually at the very end; hands, feet, fingertips. 28 is a normal age where I should be physically fit. With softball and ice hockey as my weekly sports, you could say my body should be more fit. When I play softball, I play with a limp or sore ankle. Regardless of the pain, dealing with it later is not a strong option to believe in. The only time my heel spurs or probable plantar fasciitis happens, my body is telling me that my weight is getting over the edge again, my foot apparel isn't working properly, or my sudden urge for activities should be more gradual. After almost four years with this pain, I've managed to fight back and reduce the time with the agonizing pain. My usual pattern occurs when my pudge gets a little thicker. At that point, I need to start working out again, or at least find a way to lose the pounds that put me over the painful edge.

But now my hands are feeling awkward. I've read so much on it, and it appears to be... I don't want to say it. I'll continue to monitor it. If you know what it could be, comment me please.

note: if I die young, will the world around me be affected? Have I made a difference? Shrug.