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Today is seems so emotional, yet eager. Eager to figure out the truth is worth anything. No matter what the situation, I'll still be there for you. When I said I hope history doesn't repeat itself, I hope you knew what I meant. For the reader's out there, I'm just speaking of an interest that has jumped into my life. Crazy how it happened. It just did. It was there a year ago, but I ignored it. Because my feelings were too strong for another. Plus, a year ago, I was confused to the max. I feel my grammar is far frome clear. For now, I'm just a little nervous, scared, and concerned that my friend doesn't get hurt. We all get hurt. But it takes great emotional, pure happiness to feel pain. So, don't forget, everything has an opposite effect.

note: Gosh, my hair is long.

How Feelings Show

6th Day - Forever Starts Today

Girl, wipe away the tears
Over these mountain hills
Is an ocean of love
And we'll sail forever
With the winds that showed us how to fall
Into a state of mind we’ve never known
Oh love, What should I do love?

Oh girl
Don't look the other way
I'm smiling at your face
No need to search for love
Cuz I'll be here to take your doubts away
Don't put this love to waste
Don't let it slip away
Don’t let it kill our faith
So just gather the pain, throw it away

Girl, if you look back in time
With every picture frame you'll find
There's a vision of what our love could be
Where we could fulfill a legacy of love
And every fairy tale that has a happy ending

Oh girl, what we should do love
We can take the leap of faith
We'll regret it if we don’t take that chance

Forever starts today
Ooohh
Forever starts today
Ooohh

Don't look the other way loves smiling at your face
Don’t let this love to waste don't let it slip away
I need you right here, no I can’t have you out of my life


I was listening to my Itunes and decided to look up the 6th Day album that I saw on the josepenala.com site. This song actually portrays how I feel. Maybe not completely, but the chorus expresses how I feel. I'm not entirely sure what I want for my future, but for my present, I want to give love. I want to give my everything. I want to wrap my arms around someone that wants to be held by me. Or am I just in this emotional state because I just downloaded the song above. For now, the world shall run its course, and I will find a direction that puts me in a place of happiness.

note: Lubbers Yew

Emotional Trashcan

Have you ever put yourself into a situation that you couldn't control? Only for the single reason that you wanted something more, but knew you couldn't. You badly want what's best for someone, but doing the worst wouldn't make their life any easier. I admit, there was a point in my life where I was in the same position and I attempted to get what I wanted. The consequence wasn't as bad, but it deprived my ways to be nonexistent.

After almost five years from that incident, I fall into a dilemma that just creeped up on me. Happiness overwhelmes my soul when you're around. Finding myself glance at you when you're across the room, I don't know if I should just let it fade out. The apples and the oranges have been juggled and tumbled onto the floor.

note: Playing ice hockey Saturday night. Come watch!

Cake!!!!!!

The spacing gets bigger and the space taken up gets more in depth. I never thought the window would open up like this. Looking out this window and not being able to see the view can really break the glass. Maybe someday the light will shine through. Someday, maybe I should just go back into my old room and look out that window.

note: There's an apple tree and I can't pick any apples. There's girl scout cookies everywhere, and I'm stuck with nothing.

I love you.

Clean Slate

I've found the introduction to a new life. It just dawned on me that everything has reset. The stress and fustrations are no longer present. The apples have been eaten to the core and the oranges were peeled and freshly squeezed. Yes, try to decipher what's on my mind.

The smudges are still there, but my pen still has enough ink to write down something or new poems. The lyrics will always rhyme. Although, why haven't I did what everyone is telling me to do? Because...

Don't want to.

The emotional trash can once told me that if I didn't spill the apples, then there really isn't anything to peel. True or false? Who knows? I care...I care a lot, but sometimes I just need simplicity.

To the recently ex-emo'd, it was a great day. Spending time with you is always the bestest. I will be able to braid hair soon. We all get burnt out. This is just the beginning.

note: Hunger Force on Adult Swim. New apartment setting, visit anytime people.

Internet & Cable

We've had internet for 4 days at the apartment. When we there was no internet, we lived life, unfortunately, there were a lot of small things missing. Like, having to go online for financial issues and email, the usage to browse was unlikely. I was able to read the www.chucknorrisfacts.com site. The facts weren't really facts, but random stuff, but REALLY funny.

Anyway, I went to get ashed on Wednesday. "God loves humor too." That's what I whispered to Camille when we were praying. On behalf of my devotion to the Lent season, I'm going to take on confidence where it needs it best, and make sure my mean humor doesn't get in the pathways of Ale and Millay. Oh! Also, cookies are my demons which I will give up.

note: Falling for something impossible.