My Eyes Are Itchy

K1d: here's some words of wisdom joey
K1d: "a clock, even though broken, is always right twice"
Me: which means?
K1d: that even though something may not work, there's always two other rights in your life

I thought he was attempting to call me old. Some of my friends could be mean, but they wouldn't be my friends if they didn't make fun. Right? The main joke about me among my friends is my age. I'm not that old.

#1 Joke: Your social security number is 000-00-0003.

I met an American Idol last week. Jasmine Trias has blossomed as a singer. Her style is near the norm. If you never saw her before, but heard her music, you would have never guessed that the singer was filipina hawaiian. Ha! Had to say it. At the signing, there was a supposed pervert in the crowd, according to Ted. I don't know how you could base this guy on the simple fact that he was just taking pictures of her. I say, if you find out that someone, typically pretty, from television's, American Idol, is in town and signing her album, sure, why not take pictures. If Elisha Cuthbert was in town, I'd get her autograph, picture, and get right back in line to do it all over again. But that's me. Does that make me a pervert? Of course it does! Because I'll be drooling all over her. (this is where you laugh)

Just a thought: In my eyes, everyone just looks the same age when we hangout. Only difference is that they can't get into the 21 and up clubs.

Some of the things I found out last week was that my mother's mother's mother (great grandmother on my mom's side) passed away when she was only 33. After giving birth to seven daughters, I guess God wanted her to take care of someone up there. God rest her soul. As for my great grandfather, he took care of all of his daughters. Wow! You go. Maybe that's why I enjoy children. Anyway, I saw a picture of him at one of his daughter's wedding. It's said that he looks like my brother, Chucky. It is always good to learn the tidbits of my life. Time to start that family tree that I've always wanted to do.

note: Giants are 6 games behind Padres. They will catch up. Every team in the NL West division are below .500. Weird.

Quote of the Day

"Great things come in small packages." -last heard by Ulo.

My response: Yes. Great things come in any package.

From Spikes To Fluffy

I don't know what to think. I discover the world turning upside down sometimes. I sit here in the warm climate of Paseo, using Ars' nice 'puter. While driving here to SJ, I found myself dozing off on 280. By the time I got to Wolfe, I was wide awake trying to avoid Sunday traffic. I made the meeting right on time.

As for the meeting, I'm not sure if I have a solid place there...yet. I know my strengths, and I must be told my weaknesses so I can make them positives. Most of my time is benefited into succeeding in things I shouldn't reminded to do. I can rely on my abilities to make things happen. I am someone who puts forth extra effort in order to make things happen. Like I said before, B.M.P. will make its first million in 3 years. ha!

I completed the viewing of Constantine tonight. It had its good and bad parts. The good parts came rarely, while the bad parts included bad dialogues, extremely worse one-liners, and partially slow theme. Overall, I give this movie, 1 being bad and 10 being great, a 7. In my books, a religious, science fiction flick can keep your attention because if you're a viewer, you'll have a base religion. Other than that...

My friendships mean a lot to me. Shoot, my acquaintances mean something in the lines of liking. Everyone is dope to the max!

I hate how dreams seem so real you want them to be real. I lost count of the number of dreams you were in my arms. Sheesh.

note: Giants Rock!

The Spike Sets My Mood

My co-worker, Jennifer, has become quite a joyous, yet weird person. She reminds me of little kids that just follow you with smiles on their faces. She usually calls me by my whole name, goodness. Today, she asked what my middle name was. I brushed her off and got back to work. With her head being the height of the low aisles, I saw her hair rushing toward my area, so I ran the opposite way. The only reaction was "You're mean. Come back here, Hipol!" Blah on her. I actually told her my first initial of my middle name. Well, not exactly, my first answer was 'J'. So she kept guessing, finding it was amusing when she said that J stood for Joey. My response was, "So my name is Joel Joey?" Crazy girl. Eventually, I gave her the correct initial, and the weirdest part was that her first guess was my middle name. I think I have a stalker. Ha! Whatever!

As for the summer bonfire, it was dope. I thought we'd never leave Paseo, but about 3 hours later, we made our way onto the freeway, finding out that we left Chris and Mark behind. Sorry. They went to go pick up Virgil anyway. Great times.

The drive down was interesting because I've never had a full carload of people in Caramel before. Eventually April, Mikey, and Crystal(?) got a bit of shut eye, while Rachelle and I just talked about the spooky, yet interesting phenomena. I think after talking about what we usually talk about, Engineering, we got into the subjects of horoscopes, ghostly experiences, and oddly enough, sex findings. Eeek!

Good night for the bonfire, mainly because it is foggy and super cold here at the beach now. It was sunny all day, until (enter scary drum roll) IT rolled in. (IT being the fog)

'Til next time, stay sweet, keep smiling, and let the good times roll.

Post #250 after 3 years.

After four years, my mind has developed according to the words of this blogger. The theme of this blog is based on my 'love' lifestyle. The people, events, things that put a smile on my face. Who knows? I started writing because sometimes I just wanted to record my thoughts and creativity. The only way to write, in this so-called journal, is to believe that no one reads this, but me. Can't hold back your emotions, just type/write what your mind/heart/soul desires. Let it go. I did.

As of today, there have been a lot of newly hired employees at my store. Fortunately, a majority are females. There's Alison, Kirstin, Iram, Cameron, Ivan, and Vincent, who just happened to resign today. Most of the guys are crushing on these coworkers only because they're new faces; kind of like freshmen at the beginning of the school year. I still have my particular crush, unfortunately, SHE has a GIRLFRIEND. There is also 'Vivi', who happened to say that I make her laugh whenever we work together.

Quick note: I notice that a large majority of drivers in the Sunset district don't stop at Stop Signs. Scary to find a car stop abruptly when I'm half-way through the intersection. Stupid heads!

note: Dynasty Warriors 4, my new ps2 game, is fun.

From Chilly to Sweaty

For two weeks, San Francisco was practically the best place to be; weather wise. Watching the temperature a summer high of 72 degrees, the humidity inside my work was getting to me. Before the store opened, my mandatory duties were achievable with the help of sweat glistening down my face. Yuck! I haven't had sweat drench my face since Safeway.com. The weather in SF was starting to get a bit sunny on the coast while the bay was always getting sun.

I doubted coming to San Jose because of the heat, humidity, and did I mention the heat. While relaxing at my brother's place, I found myself with an open window to my back, absorbing the cold breeze. Anyway, this weather sucks, but it'll do.

So, the Food Network had a bartending competition showing this late evening. Before it started, my yawns and droopy eyes became constant. I laid on the couch finding that my interest in flying bottles and timed cocktails was intriguing. Imagine this world competing in everything. Oh wait! We do. Amazing what some can do with a couple of bottles and so forth. It was like the movie Cocktail starring Tom Cruise, but MUCHO BETTER! Not my fancy, but cool to watch.

From topic to topic - my favorite on-screen kiss comes from the movie That Thing You Do. by the end of the movie the scene goes:

Shades: Faye? Let me ask you a question.
Faye: Shoot.
Shades: When was the last time you were decently kissed?
Faye: -line-
Shades: Okay?
He cups his right hand around her cheek and smacks her with a luscious first kiss. When they meet lips, she gives off a small whimper of..."whoa, you're kissing me". The first time you kiss someone, if they want it or not, has got to be the greatest feeling. Read it. (In the mood to write)

Welcome back Disneylandians! Have you realized its not a small world after all? Good luck with what you gotta do, Ulo!

note: Let's Go Gigantes!!!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Dear Sharks Fans:

On behalf of the entire Sharks organization, it gives me great pleasure to report that the National Hockey League and the National Hockey League Player’s Association have reached a tentative deal on a new collective bargaining agreement.

While the deal is still subject to ratification by the NHL’s Board of Governors and the NHLPA’s membership, we believe the that the two parties have taken a huge step in the right direction in an effort to create a true partnership between the players and the 30 NHL teams.

The response thus far from our fans and partners has been overwhelming and we know that you are as excited as we are to get the greatest game in the world back on the ice. With an up-and-coming team, following a Pacific Division Championship and an appearance in the Western Conference Finals, we are very anxious to resume our quest to bring the Stanley Cup to the Silicon Valley.

We will keep you up to date on the ratification process as it moves forward and we thank you for your continued support.

This truly is Sharks territory.

Best regards,


Greg Jamison
President and CEO
San Jose Sharks

Movie analysis

Many individuals quote the movie Hitch. Why?

Life is not about the amount of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away.

You know what it's like getting up every morning? Feeling hopeless, feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man. But, at the same time hoping that she still finds happiness, even if it's never going to be with you.

Any guy can sweep any girl off her feet, he just needs the right broom.

Relationships are for people who are waiting for something better to come along.

Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.

Lean in, place your hand on the small of her back, say it in her ear like a secret.

The writer, Kevin Bisch, was feeling something while he was writing such a script. What was it? "A friend of Bisch’s used to call him up and ask his advice on where he should take his dates. Bisch often heard of places to go and things to do and offered up numerous suggestions. “We said, ‘What if there was a service like this?’”, Bisch says. The idea of a "date doctor," the central character." (Rachel Wimberly, March 12, 2005) Interesting to find the motivation of screenwriter's; finding the source of their ideas, even though it couldn't be put any more simple.

There are a lot of 'students' out there that ask advice from multiple numbers of 'teachers'. The only type advice is to follow your own advice. Their 'words of wisdom' are made for their use, not your own.

I've been sitting in front of this screen for almost an hour, and this is all I got. I need a brain fart. The random topics keep squirting out, but the water doesn't flow. Blah.

You are my bestfriend. Thanks for walk-through at Target and the delicious sushi dinner. Hope you don't have any allergic reactions to the shrimp. It's true that I'm always talking about my female interests whenever we chat. And on my side, we just talk about the darker fellas.

How can you define someone as a bestfriend? Of course, everyone has differences in what they see in a bestfriend. These friends won't answer their phone when you need them the most. The best chance they get, they'll apologize for not being there. They will call you when they're in town and wait until they're back home to invite you. A bestfriend will listen to the same grief over and over, no matter how much it annoys them. They will open their door when there is no other place to go. They will allow you to stay long after they had fallen asleep. The best part is when you can see this friend once a year and continue the same conversation from the last time you saw them. I love all my bestfriends. You'll never hear it from my lips, but I do. A bestfriend will make you sad as much as they make you happy. You just have to take what they can give.

What justifies an evening with someone a date? There had been times when I requested the company of a friend or acquaintance to lunch or dinner. This event could be with either a man or woman. I don't put much meaning in the word, date, only to find that when it is used, a whole new reaction from the guest is brought up. For example, the dinner segment of the so-called date would have phrases such as, "We should go on another date again" or "This date is moving in the right direction". Between two friends, the listener may be forced to believe that the whole evening was a ploy to get closer to another, or in other words, getting to know that person. Well, according to the examples I gave, the listener doesn't really have a choice but to react with the response, "We're just friends, this isn't a date." With this response, the whole evening just turned sour because the listener has assumed that they're being pursued. Although, the talker may take advantage of the situation. How? That's for you to learn for yourself. Let me say this, no one really works in the nerve to call the evening a date, unless you're me.

So, what qualifies it as a date? TWO individuals who have attraction toward one another, in one way or another, and benefit from the evening by getting to know one another. It's like two friends hanging out, but they don't necessarily call it a date. I constantly go on dates with Ale, eating sushi like crazy, but in this situation, it could be more defined as 'hanging out'. So...when's our date?

A gift is something we cherish, especially when it's from someone important, but either way, anything given is appreciated in my book. I enjoy giving gifts, just as long as they will accept with a smile.

note: Duck the Fodgers!!!

From A Sibling

charlie: hey do you like [female]? everyone wants her.

joey: hahahaha, then everyone deserves her. too bad there's only one of her. but to answer your question, can't like someone you don't really know.

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joey: do you really want vince?

reyna: yeah, i love him.

joey: then why do you want a black guy?

reyna: what? i want them both. have you seen them?

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Just a bit of comic relief.
I was actually going to write something significant, but I've gotten really sleepy all of sudden. Work tires me out. It happens. Good night blogger.

Can't wait for Socom 3

Being back at work was exhausting. My minor cold made the day go by even slower. For some reason, waking up was the hardest part of my day. I would think so since I've been spending my nights playing video games.

Was it a mistake to have done anything? One says that things look normal, but my thought process is on a completely different page. I find myself speechless. There are so many times when I just want to blurt out all the things, but all the moments and chances offered are always taken away. I've always believed in hope, but I never expected the consequences to be this way.

I was going to erase this entry, but this is how I feel. I have inner conflict. And it SUCKS. I must say what I believe, 'it happens'. Things are done and happen for a reason. The belief in hope seems to be fading and fate has taken its course. If things happen, then they will. As for waiting, I won't. There was a feeling deep inside me that I once believed that it was meant to be. But, this mentality only leaves one in fantasy. I'm crazy to think.

So, I ask again, was it a mistake to have done anything? No. I had the strong urge to make matters awkward, and they are. The move is no longer mine. The only move I could make is from the beginning.

I want to thank my guests for joining me at the Giants game:
Thank you to...
Mom, Dad, Brothers, Ken, Joaquim, Annamay, Carol, Jason, Scott, Boogs, RJ, Dominic, Randy, Tawny, Jonas, Ted, AnDREa, Gerstein, Alan, Ale, Aris, Albert, Irene, Hsi, Rita, Mitch, Camillay, Jerry, Edison, Phil, Monica, Kristine and guest, and Cynthia.

I am...

...lonely. My arms are made for somebody to be in them. Ha! Corny. Nothing significant to write tonight. I've just thinking about someone off and on. I wonder if...that's it, I just constantly wonder if.

I Must Admit...

The reason why I won't forget this year's birthday is because of the amazing people who I spent it with, and the happy events that occurred. Just around midnight at the start of the 5th, I standing in front of Ulo's house leaving a message when the door opened and Ale & Gerstein came out and blurted "Happy Birthday". My first reaction was to run because I knew Ale wanted to punch me. Why do people hit someone times the number of years they are? Once again, I shrug.

For about a week, I looked forward to my birthday lunch date. I simply asked if she'd like to be my company for lunch, since we haven't really hung out for years upon years. I accused her of being on "girl time" while waiting for her to pick me up. With me being me, I didn't mind. A slight excitement built up when I got her text saying she was coming to get me.

The food category was japanese cuisine, a favorite by both her and I. The only problem was deciding on the venue, which came to be Yo yo Sushi. We ate what we got and the conversations were on the upside and downside. Sometimes you just have to let it out. Learning experiences is what we share. To you, you are great company and I appreciate the times we get to hangout.

As for the Giant's game, they lost, but I didn't really mind this time. My guests made up a good centerfield cheering section, especially Rows 23, 24, and 25. I think the coolest part of the night was when they all sang Happy birthday to me. A little embarrassed at first, but then I decided to let the emotions sulk in and enjoy the moment. Tell me why the Giant's decided to win the next two games after that night. They're currently in the Top 9, 2 outs, behind 1-3. Here is the scoreboard insert that we all missed.



Birthday 26 is in the album and left open for more memories.

Why are horoscopes always on point? (from Yahoo DSL homepage)
"Quickie: You are really happy. You laugh loudly! You stand proudly! You are just right!
Overview: Taking care of your prized possessions will be foremost on your mind now. That goes for your car, your clothes and gifts you've received. Just don't forget about the people in your life who may also feel 'broken.'"

part 2 of #26

The Giants game was 'bomb'. Even though they lost, it tends to happen no matter the luck of you being there or not. I'll continue to type just for the fact that it will increase my whatever. I AM FADED. Donnell, Ulo, and AnDREa bought me drinks at Friday's last night. I AM DIZZY when I close my eyes. I can't blog any more, I'm not thinking straight. All I know is that my guests made the night super cool. Enter #26.

#26 in the books and still going...

Starting off on a good note. Didn't get to see fireworks, in actuality, but it's better than last year, seeing it all on television. As for the fourth, Ulo hosted another one of his zany barbeque's at his house. There was either sitting outside around the grill or inside watching movies. I never thought movies could pass the day by so fast.

9am to 11am The Last Castle
1115am to 1pm Not Another Teen Movie
2pm to 4pm Star Wars IV: A New Hope
4pm to 6pm Star Wars V: Empire Strikes Back
6pm to 8pm Star Wars VI: Return of the Jedi

Quick note: Kareoke Revolution is crazy mad fun. Sang The Reason, by Hoobastank, and got 86%. We're still singing. I'll edit this later.

camillay: happy birthday you BIATCH!
ale: GOOD NITE BDAY PERSON!!!!
anDREa: happy birthday to you...happy birthday to you...happy birthday to joey...happy birthday to you
linelle: happy berfday!
cheeky: happppy biiirithdayyy
ss: Se123nitY: hey happy birthday
raych: happy birthday by the way
jamboy: Happy Birthday Cool Guy!
lai: Happy birthday sorry i'm late
cyn: Happy birthday Joey! woohoo! =D nite
marco: Happy birthday joey! Have a wonderful day.
chuck: happy bday butthead
love: Happy bday hero! i didnt 4get. Hope ur having a good one.
DiAnne: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY...
yumi: oh happy belated bday

Let's look back:
20 yrs. old
I was in a relationship with Lil at the time. On my birthday, we just stayed at my house in SF. It happened to be my first birthday with someone by my side.

21 yrs. old
I actually went to my Math 161a summer class, which I got a B+ in. After that, I waited for the evening to slowly come. A handful of us went on over to TGIF's, where I took my very first alcoholic beverage. Yes!? I waited until I was legal to drink. After, my e.W.o buddies gave me even more drinks. There's a video, but it will never see another pair of eyes besides mine.

22 yrs. old
Invited friends over to e-dub. We watched the Giants game out on the lawn. By midnight, I had taken 10 shots of yucky stuff. A lot of guests came along to spend a great night with me.

23 yrs. old
Another birthday at the House of Corinth, aka e-dub. This was the ultimate test for me in the alcohol realm. Little did I know that four of my early shots were triples. I nearly matched my age with shots. 22!!! I was completely out. I do remember Ted walking and running around the block with me. Sorry for running Ted. I remember being passed out in the 502 garage and Jerry kneeing me. Bleh.

24 yrs. old
My last recorded birthday at the Akbayan House, aka House of Corinth, aka e-dub. After years of birthdays, this set of guests would be the one's that I would see at the rest of my birthdays until I die. Righteous to the max!

25 yrs. old
Hooter's with a handful of good/great friends, and one bad seed. After the San Jose people left, Edison, Aivy, and I went to the Children's Playground. We went on the sings and went down the cement slide. The night was a bit foggy, reminding me of particular scenes from Fatal Frame 2.

At the moment: Woke up with a minor headache.

24 hours
I had my first Corona(Light) last night.
I sang a duet with a friend that seemed more like a frickin' solo.
I was punched twice by a good friend.
I was punched 50+ times by a female great friend.
I was pressing the snooze bar this morning, but she kept barking at me.
I succeeded in making my bestfriend feel guilt; without even trying.
I made excellent, girthy hamburger patties better than the other chef's little one's.

Pick-up Lines

There are phrases that have the tendency to be used over and over to win the attention of the opposite sex. The belief that flirting will conclude positively is an endless journey that will categorize your position as the comedic friend, that when one decides to act upon a certain dimension, the response tears away the
confidence and self-esteem. But this is beside the whole point of dating, or wanting to find the perfect person for someone.

Is that possible? Wouldn't that mean that the absolute relationship should have happened the moment they met eyes. But wait! There is the possibility that two individuals could be magnetized by the fate that brought them to be in the same place, at that point in time. True love was designed to believe that there is hope. I believe in hope. For those souls who discover that they are destined to be with the right person from that instance.

We, as humans, have an invisible shield that keeps us from falling for the wrong one's. Although, sometimes we interact with someone that can unlock the barriers, realizing Cupid has shot an agonizing arrow. These 'keyholders' could appear at any point in one's life, when you least expect, when you can't help but feel
so vulnerable that anyone could be the next person.

When attraction enters my life, my barriers are unlocked and open to the world. On the other hand, this approach may be the wrong one. The mystery about my life could
lead into something most approving. My characteristics are transparent. I don't have anything to hide. If a question is brought up, I'll answer with truth and
respect. At times, when I feel the need to keep in a piece of my puzzle, I will withstand.

Make like Dean Martin and sing with me..."You're Nobody 'Til Somebody Loves You."

I want to believe that there is someone out there for me. I don't look. God knows I don't look. The one for me is out there. The one for you is out there too. You
too, you'll find her. Some of the cliches that are crap are:

"Love happens when you least expect it."
Meaning: If you stop attempting, it won't jump in front of you. Nothing happens when nothing is done.

"Let it go. If it comes back again, it's meant to be."
Meaning: Ha! Are you serious? If it didn't work the first time, what makes you think it'll work the second, or the third. I guess this is where hope comes in.

"He/She promised they wouldn't cheat on me again."
Meaning: ... (I'm kidding. I just hear this from a bunch of my friends, and Ya'll never listen to me. Stupid!!!

"The love of your life is right in front of you."
Meaning: If they are, you don't need to open eyes, they just need to make a better impression on you.

***Disclaimer: This is opinion only. My pov is always open for pros or cons.

On a happier note, Happy Independence Day. I say this a lot, but, the only reason we use fireworks on the 4th is to open my Birthday with a BANG! Bangggg-A-Ranggg!

I'll admit it, I'm turning 26, not 21 plus 5!

note: At Ulo's house, 3:57am. Entered with You Got Served and concluded the video evening with Hitch. The script writer is a romantic. Such
words. Good night!

Sayings

You can love someone forever, but love changes. love isn't a one road definition. - josh.gumbi

Until Tuesday.

People have always told me that I wasn't a certain person's type. How can someone other than the actual person tell me I'm not there type? For those of you who keep up with me, my attraction towards others was always too analytical. This time, I need to play it cool. Who knows? She's probably just being friendly like she was way back when. I've always been the type to keep hope alive. I am all about hope. Hope sucks!!! So, until Tuesday.

note: Giants rock my socks.

In An Instant...

My emotions could change in an instant. It could be the influence of watching another sappy love movie. At the moment, 50 First Dates is showing on 559 HBOCM. Adamn Sandler is still a hilarious angry person. Memory is the one thing that a lot of people take for granted. When we are reintroduced to some people and we stay quiet about not knowing who they are, it gives you an uncomfortable feeling. In that case, there is no guilt in forgetting someone, even if it is family. Within that instant, there shouldn't be a reason for the situation to go sour.

My emotions could change in an instant. Laughter can overcome all influences of negative feelings. After watching a sappy love/hate movie, my eyes are cast upon an episode of Friends. Comedy is my cure to it all. The moment something occurs, my smile enlarges into an instant "lol".

My emotions could change in an instant. My control to click on certain links seems to fade out. The information I read could turn to the worst. Blah.

I'll be back...