Singing along with: Call On Me by DNH - its Halloween Night...Brrr...its cold in here. hehe

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PART IV -i'm all for games. i love the games. its what makes the whole trip interesting. although, there's a lot of cheatin' goin' on. but its all good i guess. shoot. i just realized that i told the freshmen to cheat. i'm bad. *slap* bad gumbi. :: so conveyor belt had diane on top. whoa. and she totally just flew right off. goodness...and dammit. that other school was so close. how are we supposed to get around. anyway. we didn't place. we couldn't. not at the rate we were going. i left during Tidal Wave to sit next to nicole, pammy, vince, and MAY. *sigh* hehe. i also bought my first and last f'games shirt. funtimes now. anyway, i just took a picture of some csuf girl with some wet shirt. her fault for showin' the boob. oh well. so i go back to the hotel because i'm tired and i wanted to make sure dre was doing good. she was in 509 with gumbissa and jae. i think after we won FIRST, they all attempted to go back to the hotel. esp. alexis and gail going back and taking a shower. i went back with ted and decided to go eat. approximately 1156am :: so i go meet up with ted in the front, and guess who comes out. the group of girls from 445 and my roomies. woohoo. ya'll need a ride. ok...mcd's yum. get back to the hotel at 1215am and gina-bina calls up saying she's going to the games now. i'm like. cool. finally get to meet her. the tribulations of meeting people online. you wanna meet them, but at the same time, you don't wanna meet them. but sure. 4 year friendships could go on without ever meetnig. her and i have. ted and i eat in the room 516 and he spills his drink...GREAT! we head back to the games at 115pm and guess what. HALFTIME is still goin' on. *yawn* i almost fall asleep, but i decide to take a stroll around and look for gina-bina. but guess what. she leaves already. stupid booger butt. hehe. halftime ends like at 135pm and we're all set for Alpine to frickin' start. but when we're about to start, there's anothe rdance group. so the Alpine Team on my End...Aris, Kathleen, Alexis, etc. ya'll are the best. although, having that ski flying in different places makes it difficult to start off. but shoot. we're the bomb. we were one of two schools to go after one set. the rulers told us to stop. dammit. so we had to do the whole thing over. should have got 2nd, but 3rd is all good. damn. i was yellin' LEFT RIGHT LEFT RIGHT LEFT RIGHT. i stopped like 3 quarters of the way. couldn't say nothing. so we passed the line and i fell. we took 3rd. at least we placed. next Groundhog where i actually coached. GO!!! GO!!! can you freakin' hear me? GO!!! once they heard me, damn we were fast. luckily we went from 4th to 2nd. should have been 1st. oh well. twas fun. so we ended up with 20 something points. time to go home. but first, the pictures. SJSU, and then Triforce. yes i'm proud to be a brown person at that point. so its time to clean up. once i figured that the clean up was all good, we sat underneath the canopy and played some hand slap game. alexis, gail, kathleen, aris, ana, and some others. damn. i love being around females. esp you aris. haha. so we close up camp and head back. but bj and i won't carry that thing the whole way. we see abby. woohoo. we get a free ride, although, we wait almost 20 minutes for ulo to get to his car so we can put it in there. sheesh. its like 530pm now and i'm chillin' waiting for ulo. woohoo there he is. we go inside and i'm chillin' in 509 watchi'n the game. lofton hits the ball and we score 2-0. finally. something good. so ulo and i go downstairs to watch in the lobby. there they go, alexis, gail, kathleen and rhia. eatin' there food. watching the giants score. and dangit. late 7th inning, angel's come back in full force. straight pity. i'm so disappointed. oh well. time to shower. its about 9pm now. :: i get out of the shower and expect myself to get in the van and go to downtown disney espn zone. shoot. little did i know that paulo, courtney and ted were now coming...cool. and then i recruited kathleen during the game. didn't want her to sit in her room being bored. also, owen came along cuz he's a homie and i think he has something for what's her name. but shhhh...so that me, ted, paulo and courtney (the originals) and then kathleen, owen, bj and diane. so altogether 8 in my fun/family van. woohoo. but wait. 2 more cars behind me with justin and company and allen and company, including dre. ok. so we're going down State College Street. all you hear is *honk honk* Angel's fans goin' crazy. oh well we made it to the next street and we get to dt. disney. when we arrive, sfsu arrives. fun times. ok ok. we walk and enjoy ourselves. we catch up with raina and company at Naples. the lasagna is delicious. yum. :: 1130pm and we reach the California Adventure. taking pictures in the letters and contemplating the crucified monkey on the golden gate bridge. hmmm. ok. moving on to Denny's. we do some weird stuff that just can't be explained, so we'll leave it at that. so now its, joey ted raina owen kathleen aris dre bj diane roshelle addie jovi paulo courtney sitting at 3 different tables. ok ok. let's fast forward to finding where the heck the van went. i'm like...where's the van. ok dre. you were right...for once...sheesh. anyway, we got in the van, and we were on our way back to marriott. until bj starts messin' with diane. she gets scared and i'm like. geez. stop trippin'. what else. i have control of the lights in the car and i was playin' around with them. kathleen gets spooked, but i reassure her that it was me playin' with the lights. sheesh. :: we get back at 130am but i decide to go to 151. there's one thing i've never done at f'games...and that is drink. so shoot, my last one, bottom's up. well, a certain somebody, Aivy and Abby, invite my soul to a night of endless drinking. as for me, i'm a light/heavy weight when it comes to drinking. i was tired. so after the first drink made by Aivy, i was warm and ready to be taken advantage of. what happened that night? this is what happened...after my first drink eight hours later :: 930am i find myself sleeping in the freshmen room 521 next to ann. *scratching head* ok. wow. ok. sunday was as much fun as friday. yet more profound shhhh went down.

Listening to: Grand Theft Auto III - RJ's playing - i have a stuffy nose in my right nostril.

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PART III The Morning...i wake up at like 430am because Marlon wouldn't keep the light right above me off. there's like 5 other lamps in the room. i ain't trippin' though, i'm a nice guy. frickin' 2 hours of sleep. argghhh. anyway, i would have thought i could rest til about 515am...but NOOO. so i jump into the shower and find something weird. HOT WATER. wonderful itis. usually all the hot water is gone. damn those other schools. DAMN you to hell. (in Homer voice) 527am i'm out and about on the 2nd floor of the parking garage. i begin taping with my video camera...and yes it does work. oh no! its drizzling. everyone decides to walk. but me, being my how manyth year at csuf games. i'mma ride with jamboy, paulo, tedio, and crystal. woohoo, we pass by akbayan like twice and they continue to walk in front of the car. GET OUT OF THE WAY! haha. woohoo now there's a straight up down pour 538am :: lucky for me, marissa was underneath a huge canoy umbrella. YES! and i await for registration in front of the akbyaan line. and guess who i meet. if i recall her, her name was Christine. yes from fullerton. she's cute for a petite and gorgeous eyed hottie mama. nad yes i did take a picture with her. yum! we walk in and i see everyone lookin' in awe. they see schools underneath their individual canopies. i think i saw a whole club underneath one of those small canopies. like 50some people's. sheesh. and then you got those school's who are willing ill-death sicknesses to win SPUF. ah yes. i was willing, but was akbayan, heck no. don't blame them. no heart. well, not yet. :: 622am and the rain stops comin' down. woohoo. all the posters pretty much ruined except one particular poster. yes of course. Aldrich's super SF Giants poster. not just a poster, but a monkey hangin'...bing's monkey. haha. its gonna be one hellava day. 735am and you can just hear spuf from left to right. people runnin' around the field. woohoo. i wish i didn't have to leave this, but shoot, if i don't grow up, what filipino will? ha! i notice that amazing sun peek through the clouds, but not yet. :: 759am we all get ready for Roll Call. we're like the 15-20th school to go up. i only liked fullerton mainly because where i was standing, in the front as usual, NICOLE was standing right there struttin' her stuff. adorable she is. would say too much for me though. so pomona or santa barbara goes up with some long roll call, yet it was really good. almost as good as akbayan's. as much as i liked everyone's, i wouldn't dare record the whole thing of each oneof them. no way. too tedious to watch. i'm fine just chillin' with like 15 seconds of each. anyway, i left after hmmm? the school with all the bahog guys wettin' themselves and turnin' around and seein' girls...young inexperienced horny girls because they've nevercome close to such things. shoot. its filipino males in bahogs. if no one every came to the PI, we would still be wearin' them. ha! i'm down. shows off my sexy booty. yikes. enough. next up. :: about 830am we're getting for the games. well, actually, everyone's eating. sheesh. its not like we'll die if we don't eat a balanced 3 meal diet for one day. geez. sorry guys. its just, yeah, we got DQ'd from the Nasty. d'oh. my game. we always win this. losing is something but DQ'd...gahhh! hehe...its ok. we got 4 more games. shoot. i think i'll come back later. remember. we still got Conveyor Belt, Tidal Wave, Halftime, Alpine, and Groundhog. and the infamous trip to Downtown Disney. DAMN YOU ANGEL'S FANS. frickin' annoying.

Song playing: Look at us now baby by Sarina Paris - I finally finished that damn tech 198 paper. i'm kinda proud of it.

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PART II begins...so Ernesto still had to drop his load. so he goes, if we are not stopped and at a bathroom by 830pm, he would let it out. so, the nice person i am, i exited and found a mcd's. food and bathroom. and of course, aldrich gets dogged because of his giants attire. me too. my visor. haha. fun stuff. we finally leave and figure out that 91 was straight ahead. we all cheered in excitement. from that point, aldrich sits in front and plays his trance cd. so him and i start dancing dancing. so we go over the high 91 junction and keep driving. we keep telling ourselves that 52 would be coming up. but then i remember that its 57. so i almost miss the exit but we hit it. woohoo. la freeways. so frickin' confusing. 3 exits later we see NUTWOOD. WOODNUT. NUT...WOOD @ 847pm. we've arrived. we park in the bottom floor of marriott garage and get our stuff to go upstairs. yay! so exciting. we walk into hotel and find...boom, jonas, jon, owen, rhia, gail, etc. woohoo. i bet you they're bored. i go upstairs to room 509. i meet nicole there and meet pammy and MAY. haha. :: so i walk around to different rooms, but no one is around. so i chill in 509 for a long while. my passengers all chill while i find myself something fun to do. little did i know that some of pasa arrive. i exit the elevator representing San Jo. then one of the security comes up behind me saying keep it down. and the polite person i am, i give him a gesture of acceptance. i saw wassup to everyone but then i'm alone again being bored. so i go back to my room and find that no one is in there. bored bored bored. finally something comes up with cabinet. from 9-10pm i chill with kathleen, dre, alexis and owen just watching people walking back and forth. ted calls me and tells me that they need help with some problems. but shoot, he forgot i'm not on cabinet. so from 10-12pm, i'm not acquired to say what was down. haha. 12midnight comes and we're at the sjsu meeting trying to keep everything quiet. all 82 people were in the dining area. kinda tight, yet my hype was pretty much gone. i watched how the KOK's walked in the moment they got to the hotel. the freshmen clique have no idea what they're doing, and the rest of us are just chillin' i'm sittin' feelin' tired. i could possibly name everyone in that room now. but i choose not to because this blog is already long enough and i'm still on friday. well, the meeting is over and i'm wondering through the hallways with whoever. finally, aldrich and i pass by the fullerton girls again and again, but continue to ignore them, mainly because nicole wasn't there. *sigh* finally i decide to meet my roommates. wassup ullises, marlon, richwood, owen, joseph, jon, and paulo. welp, its 245am and i'm off to bed and funtimes in 3 hours. To Be Continued...

Song playing: Jackson 5 Medley :: what you're about to read is a fun, fulfilled weekend. hope you've had experiences like these.

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my very last friendship games. it sounds like i heard myself say it last year. maybe because i did. i have no regrets going this year. i met a lot of good and fun people. the weekend began like this...
FRIDAY::i woke up at 815am :: faded my hair cuz i wanna TRY to look pogi :: went to class at 915am cuz i had to walk :: spend some time in my nufs 163 class, i found out that reagan ordered over 15 halfway houses be constructed around our campus. if you wanna know more about this, let me now...i'll tell you :: butler let us out at 1035am, 15 minutes after the designated time :: i met up with ted so we could drive over to stanford to pick up the van at enterprise. that's why i didn't bike to school. so i don't have to ride home and wait for ted :: so we went to stanford enterprise to meet up with gwen's bf, jason, very generous person.1107am hi5 homie, ted dropped me off and left. i received the van and left enterprise about 1115am. REMEMBER: I TOLD MY PASSENGERS WE WERE TO LEAVE AT 11AM (MY BAD) well, i was about a mile down the road when i forgot my ccard and license. so...my way back to enterprise :: 1123am i call up ernesto and dre and tell them that i'll be in front of the dorms at 1135am. i'm thinkin' - it took ted and i to get there in 23 minutes. is it possible to get from stanford to the dorms in 12 minutes. :: HELL NO!!! i got to the dorms at 1138am hehe...15 minutes. i went in front of JWH and found Dre, Ernesto and Daniel :: went to my place at 1145am and packed up to go pick up Raina and Aldrich at Raina's. 45 minutes off my schedule :: i get to Raina's about 12 noon. little do i know is that we're are to wait for ted there. :: so time goes by and 1225pm reaches and ted gets there. i'm pulling out of Raina's driveway when i hear that we forgot the bahog's. ARGH! :: on to ted's house. 1238pm. i take my lap around Miranda Park and depart with ted, raina, ernesto, aldrich, dre, and myself at 1243pm :: now we gotta get gas at 76. Dre pays with her ccard. this is the fun part. we take about 10 minutes to figure out how to open the gas thingy. b4 that though, i thought the gas thing was on the right...but of course my luck...its on the driver's side. d'oh. finally, we have no idea how to open the gas thing. when i walk up to the thing and flick the opening how my car is. the person who was to pump the gas got mad at me. i won't say who this individual is. but ha! weirdo. its 1259pm FRICKIN' 2 HOURS AFTER SCHEDULED TIME TO DEPART well, gotta live with what comes to you :: we hit 152 at 136pm, 5 at 253pm, 91 at 806pm :: on 101, we just chilled and listened to MY music. YES! but then, Dre fell right to sleep. DRE? you're in shotgun...you're supposed to stay awake. anyway, dre and ted switched :: we went straight through 152 in such a quick breeze. like 35 minutes of 75mph driving through hills and turns. phew! by the time 5 came along, we warned ourselves of the infamous cow smell. aldrich notices and quickly says "close the vents...COWS" :: after seeing the Los Angeles sign a few times, Dre begins to call off the number of miles to LA starting at 204. and if you haven't noticed, the sign shows up every 11 miles. the best thing about it was that when she updated us, we all cheered "hooray". you know...the way Nicole does it :: hehe. i love cruise control. that's why i went through the straight away of 5 in less than hour and a half. we reached grapevine and bought gas at 410pm :: and from there, the San Bernardino Hills got to me. with curvy uphills and a small drizzle of rain, we all began to get restless. but little did the weather know, we all had Giants fever in our blood. esp. Aldrich. he made a sign that later became the strength of akbayan :: about 15 minutes left of the whole trip, we all needed to use the bathroom. i'm thinking. i gotta go pee in my head, but i know that the hotel is near. so i scream out, stop laughing back there nymphos "i gotta pee". little did i know, 30 seconds later, Aldrich says "if this car isn't stopped by 715pm, i'm going in the bottle." so his urgency became my urgency, and mine became dre's, and dre's became ernesto's #2. whoa! so through traffic, i'm trying to get through this infamous la traffic and finally find an exit. but b4 that, aldrich opens up a bottle and pretends that he's gonna go. hehe...and at the same time being next to dre. wow! i turn up the radio so none of us hear the waterfall and splashes in the bottle. hopefully he only needs ONE bottle. if not, geez. and so on. i forget which one, but we pass over 101 and find that the freeway has NOOOOOO traffic whatsoever. but that's beside the point until we find a restroom. we stop at a 76 and find out that there's no restroom. arghhhh! so we go down more and find that there's a bridge. i quickly make a right turn almost hitting someone behind me. phew! we end up in the straight boonies where we could all get raped...but i didn't care. i found a wall and let it out. 63 seconds of flow. while aldrich's 90+ seconds of relief. little did i know was that dre decided to let it out to. yikes. a girl peeing doesn't seem correct, esp. in the place we were...but she did. so we all were relieved but ernesto. i'll continue tomorrow. this is a long blog. PART I ends

Song playing: Slow Jam by Monica & Usher - don't ask me why I put this. I guess i want to be like Whiskers and Joyee. ya'll are just too cool - how do you do it?

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ha! so the Giants lost again. but its ok. its all for ratings. all sports are conspiracy directives. the 49ers lost because of TO's consequences for his over-rewarding TD signing. the Sharks keep losing because, now that NABOKOV signed, the return of NABBY! NABBY! will be even more uplifting for SJ Shark fans!!! What else. damn! the Giants. SHOOT! if you had a fight between a SF Seal & Anaheim Monkey, the monkey would get slaughtered. although, the monkey might give the seal an unbelievable disease. GREAT!? As for the SJSU football team. more fluke wins? AND the Warriors? hmmm? Maybe...damn. can't say anything. put Bryant and Shaq on the Warriors and they'll probably still lose. As my roommates and I conclude is that sports is empowered by mafias. or maybe we watch too many gangster shows. Sopranos - Sunday 9-10pm HBO. quick plug.
oh! this week has been great so far and its only tuesday night. for once, i got a B in my 168, and an A in my 162. *sigh* woohoo. Akbayan people are so hype to go down to F'games. but do they have just enough to bring SPUF and Games home. YES! Yes they do!!! also, 18/20 on my 162 lab1. YES!!!! oh? ICEMEN, my ice hockey team, we won 9-0. i got a ONE SHORT-HAND GOAL. YAH!!!!!!!! bye bye

it has finally came back. that feeling i get when i get attached. it's so great in the beginning but then my pace is just so much faster than the other. how do u react to that? sometimes i feel i can over do it, and then the other will just hate me. now i'm just trying to find someone to talk to. but then, i also have so many assignments due. my patience with temper is so confident. on the other hand, my patience with communication is out of the ordinary. communication is very important to me, and i'm not taking it well. now i feel like this. i have a midterm tomorrow and i can't concentrate. i have a research paper due wednesday and i hardly started on it. AND. the giants are losing. good grief. relationship school and leisure is just miserable. i told you. its back. i've dealt with these feelings before, but i can never find my way around it.

School really sucks sometimes. But, for me, I just love going. Maybe its because of the people i see at school. I know...I know. That's really the wrong reason to go to school. Seriously, I go to all my classes, and I haven't cut a not a one ever since...i was a junior. haha. i ain't telling you people what year I am. I'm OLD. hehe. (topic change) I worked at Pirates of the Emerson again tonight. No more...please! Shoot - they were hitting back today. gotta frickin' bloody nose from getting hit in the face. grrr. I also went to the Shark's game last night. woohoo. they won 4-3. ALL because I went. *sigh* (topic change) gina-bina - you make me feel bad...grrr. i realize a little bit too late the way i treat you sometimes. My apologies in advance for all the times I always say "Think about this..." I can be a dick to you sometimes. And school and studying shouldn't be an excuse to blame you on all my stresses and frustrations. (topic change) ha-choo!!!

Appreciation is what makes me even feel better and better. To see the transformation of a friend take place is a great feeling of joy taken over me. Yes. Whiskers. You get a high-5 from the Gumbi. But besides that - i've decided to write with a big more grammar because most of you can't comprehend with what i've quoted ever since the first time i started blogging. i didn't want to make this a normal journal thingy. oh well, see what you people do to people like me. you make me normal. i'm so not down to be normal. i'm a weirdo. i'm so weird you see a brown hockey player on the ice. yes. well, around here, filipinos don't put ice skates on. YES. a way to be different and at the same time love what i'm doing. ok. to break my life down at this point in time. studying has taken a great part in my life giving me reasons to achieve in greatness in what i'm learning...happy that that special person(s) are in my life...my nayabka lifestyle has been fading-knowing that i can step out of that loop...making friends in ways i thought not i could...that's it. leave me be until next time. G-Bina - sorry i didn't answer your call. SJ Sharks - ya'll are tight. and you win on the first game i go to. WOOHOO!!! my Chicagoan weirdo - be strong. don't ever let things to farther then they're supposed to...Whiskers - 160+ ok!?...Cough² - SICK AGAIN. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

"feels of yay's over and over again. everything just seems less tense when a presence of your fragrance fills my lungs. my eyes look deep into yours as usual, but this time, there is an enormous amount of joy and passion running through my veins. does this path not find a permanant home, this umbrella of smiles has been worth this temporary time. my foot follows each foot wanting and feenin' for footprints that devour my craving for my brr. like lifting my excited body into the air, flowing like the winds of undeniable purity. for this time of space, long for what is what comes." - i have this strange but familiar feeling in my mind, body, soul, heart for you brr.

"giving up, knowing that the end is near is hopeless. retreating from the inevitable is but a part of my culture that i've seen with my own eyes. with the range of age around my aspirations, males and females feel that achievement of goals should and must be made. now the generation next have no one really to look up to. busy people ignore the one's calling out. why can't we just leave everything be, and shoot for the gold from the dreams that we imagined since we were young. i do. i see my goal fading and coming. by my end, i see a clear, concise image of what lies in front of me. until it surpasses my direction, my view is straight-foward. i see my goal. i see my future endeavor. i see my next obstacle." -key meaning:::Don't give up. to Whiskers. This is for you.

"my mind seems as though its getting nudged out. this pain i literally feel, this agony i long not to feel no more. will it soon be gone. the misery i feel wishing to keep my eyes shut, keep my body in unconscious thought. please. let it go. leave me alone. i want to be isolated from such pains. i must let go, i shall let go. i am so much stronger than this. i will not give up. i will conquer my foes, i will demolish my nemesis, i will devour such obstacles. i am determined, i am powerful, i am strength waiting to fulfill and assist others in isolation and discouragement. for now, i must rest. rest my soul, rest my mind. i fall behind waiting for completeness."

San Francisco Giants - win game 4 to tie series with Atlanta Braves -woohoo

San Francisco 49ers - win week 4 against St. Louis Rams (3-1) -woohoo

San Jose Sharks - lost final preseason game against Vancouver Canucks -d'oh

Oakland Athletics - lost game 4 closing out season against Minnesota Twins -blah

Oakland Raiders - won week 5 against Buffalo Bills (4-0) -blah

SJSU Football - won against TMU 34-23 (3-2) -woohoo

NHL - 3 more days 'til season begins -woohoo

Akbayan's 2nd Annual Ma'Boo'hay - another success - woohoo

ICEMEN - lost against Bruise Brothers 0-1 (2-1) -d'oh & blah

Boredom is the result of many occurrences. One is because people don't want to get up and find something to do. The smallest thing can amuse or entertain you. Two is because you lack the imagination. My boredom seems to come up when I'm just relaxin' with my leisure time. You can say I have a lot of this. Think about it.

"round eyes, shy smile, potential, fatigue, on-going beauty." - yes...you are all these things.

last night i woke up around 3am coughing my lungs out. i thought i was going to start coughing out blood soon the way i was yackin' and blah. anyway, my throat was so sore, whenever i swallowed, it hurt. there was a small point no air was going through. the world part is that everytime i inhaled, there was a poignant pain in my lower rib cage and mid-spine area. so tell me, if i died right there, would you know? probably not.
so i ask again, if i vanished, would you notice?
if i left, would you look for me?
if i died, would u come to my funeral?
The last thing I want in my life is to be alone. The last thing I want in my life is to leave everyone without an explanation. The last thing I want everyone to think is how stubborn I was. The best thing I can tell you know is that I'm sick. A sick that I've never felt before.