update on me: school is frustrating. i want an A but i receive a B. I want to enjoy my classes, but i fall asleep. work is the same. lenient, flexible, do-able.

on we go. i call this Friends We Long To Remember "Continuously yearning to find another person to share a new experience of life with. Falling deeply into a nightless cavern, filled with reflections of memories that are reminiscent to my eyes. Casted like a shadowed dream wishing to leave behind. Forgetting what cannot be done, realizing that what ownership given, these objects are gathered dust hugged by four sides and glasses. Do dare to keep thinking of what was done, instead of what shouldn't have been done, it's all behind us now. Do dare us not the impossibles, instead of settling for just the possibles. Do dare the abnormal feelings, characteristics portrayed for each fruit, pouting away the yeses and nos, instead keeping the norm between souls. Further the gap and find within yourself to make me remembered. Paint me a part of your life, until the day that washed away into the piped grates." Define this...

"feel as if my last breaths are coming. fatigue, absolutely no endurance, all i have is my will to fight this blah. rest, head down, two sometimes three blankets over me. its so cold, my pain in my breathe has seized to a minor. my body aches dropping down onto bed like boulder meeting water. sucked deep into my bed yearning for another inhale and exhale of good clean air. instead my body sinks, sinks, sinks. to the bottom i must rest. to the bottom for now i must regain what i had before. to the bottom i must wither away and be proud of the accomplishments in my life. but why must i go now, isn't there much much more to do out there. thinking of something so unusual, that i feel complete. yet, i know i am not. i'm fighting this laziness, yet enemy away once again. it seems like yesterday i was in battle. let me black out. i'm so burnt out. is it time to rest? yes! leave me be. i'm ready to see the rest...of my life." blah!

someone tapped me on the shoulder today. i have no idea who it was because they wouldn't turn around. also, i have no idea which person tapped because there were so many people walking in that same direction. if anyone knows who this person is, let me know. its incredible how much i've been into my studies. it kinda hurts. i have a sore throat. but this piece of thingy is for the akbayan people in my life.

"As the days lessen my life seems to become more and more fulfilled. The bodies that have entered my life is amazing. For once, respect and ears open is gained for my mind. Expecting nothing but a smile in return, my life grazes with happiness with others. How can departing help keep me from these people. Missing them will gain as days pass. What was my reason for leaving again? To get on with my life and what. Akbayan is my life. My characteristics have been boiled over due to the magnitude of what this organization has given. From people like the Bangi's, Teddylicious', Ulo's...for once the smile on my face is true to the game. Making a difference in a community takes time and commitment. Putting forth the last five, six, ten years, this place of comfort is where my belonging is. To put down this club is more like facing my back toward my dear mother. Impossible as it may seem, my life can isolate from this place of paradise. The cabinet means so much more deeper than what others may seem. Defining it is family, happiness, a greater cause toward life."
This piece is for those whom I've shared cabinets with: Cheryl Myra Mark P. Brandon Bryan Rowena Franchesca Ickey Jocie Charlie Renee Courtney Mike4 AJ Ted Marissa Irene Jonas Lynelle Anna Elaine Joanne Lowellen Erick Aris Ana T. Zaldy Michelle C. Michelle P. Alex Jeff M. Mike Jerry Annie Marius Mark S. Ryan Deanna Reyna Suzanne Tawny Brian A. Jeff A. Paulo Andrea Courtney Aldrich Allen Ernesto Nyl Brian B. Nicole Ana L. April Karen Eric Christine Florylynn Leighton Dynah Joyce Eileen Chariss Charleane To you 64 people, I am who I am.

To be a leader, one must know some key points. As a fact, this type of opinion is mine and in total will not be critical for any type of ways it can be wrong. My bias is mine. Your mind is your mind. And these are my words of leadership identity.
"Let go of the inevitable and find out that your meant to be in front of the line. Sacrifice your time temporarily to team up with those toward a certain goal. Grab hold of that torch and lead what you must. Those that shadow shall be of great need. If marching forth is such easy job, your ideas are much very wrong. Into account, a take great time to get other's to become not followers, but much performed leaders like my mind has set me to believe. If leading is set in your mind to do the best you possibly can, its not good enough. Your mindset should be developed, constucted, and foreseen in all's mind. In the case that you miscommunicate your vision, other's shall branch off and leave your mentality to failure. talk, speech, dialogue. give what you can, but do what you must."

"Developing that sense of acceptance when giving away my point of view when figuring that my way is either the best or worse way. Listen to words of many lips while figuring that some may motivate a mind that will change them or exploit them. Fill out that specific piece of information on that sheet and you'll get in return a reply that will get you ahead or leave you behind in a particular bucket full of snappers. Choose what you know what you want to do while others ponder on how much life will differ on their chooses of the present. Keeping in mind that a choice will not make any difference if taken into consideration that it was the wrongful choice. At any point in time, there is no certain decision that must be made that will show your determined future. Living a flowing path will decide for itself on what you must do is correct in lines of happines and pain. Most leave out the fact that their words are hypocritism, due to the lines of breath that what they say is not what they do, but what they do believe. Who cares for future when none are certain there will be. Assuming the lesser of any assumption will live on in this suicidal community, leaving left not for the bad, but to feel there must be something for a good turning point." Summary live a long life in short increments. the path not yet taken may seem longer than expected. don't find yourself with a burden that will be left.

"Brown eyes...finally now i realize...that only your smile can move me ...its like a moving within your loving arms...and that why...you're mine...(phrase)darlin'...my darlin...i care for you so(i care for you so)...oh darlin'...oh and you'll never know...oh darlin'(darlin')...darlin'(darlin')...with every breath i take...i love you darlin'...so please take care of my heartparalyzed(excellance)...you are to me...keep me(as your numero uno)...as your number one to see...you complete in every single way...i wanna stay forever in love with you girl...lets raise a family...darlin' your the inspiration...when i keep holding on to you and never let you go...(so darlin'...my sweet sweet darlin'...i will always treat you right...so let this last forever baby) -Boys II Men Darlin'

riangeliq: ill keep you on mah bl
riangeliq: coz u seem like a dope person tah talk to

WOW! i'm dope!!!

"listening to a flow of letters rythym beat by beat with my heart following along. looking into thy eyes and finding a map, an atlas, a way to grasp heart. leading my way into your soul, a locked area which i long to break hold of. my words, my mind, my soul, my entire well-being longs to find the way into your beating heart. the thought of my heart with your heart is like a slow dance. the touch of our hands in one another's, the gentlemen hold of my hand against your side, your hand briskfully pulsing the back of my neck, eyes glistening inches apart finding a treasure waiting to be found, the sway of our bodies moving side to side, the flow of air, breath, oxygen from our harmony, the sound of just our own beautiful notes for thou can only hear, the time seeming endlessly, the next step waiting to be made. for that next step is bliss. for that next step is fantasy. for that next step only to be with you. for that next step finally fallen deep in love with you." - dedicated to all the females that i once felt deeply for. thank you all for the feelings. without you, these words would never have been made.